Luh Cjay - December Lyrics

I get the mood swings in December
Darkest times they get remembered
Went from joyful holidays to depressing times up in the winter
The snow be hella cold but it's not that, that gives me shivers
It be knowing that my Daddy ain't gone be here for the winter uh
You ain't here and I just need you now
I need you here to hold me down
I'm steady thinking who am I without you in my life right now
It's been a cold cold December
I miss the bright days, September
It's dark no matter what I still don't got my Daddy my defender

I be mad that I ain't got em
It be hard to solve my problems
But this a problem I can't solve
They in the sky's where god got em
Yeah December getting cold
I don't need a coat my heart done been down this road
Even in the summer reminiscing bout the snow
The tear's from my eyes they frozen up and hit the floor
And anytime I call you I can't ever hear your tone
And I can't even meet you I'm just going with I know
December 19th yeah that shit fuck with my heart
I got two fallen soldiers and I'm here to play your part
An ever since he died you see my face up with the scars
We never wanted y'all to leave I wish this shit restarts yeah
Y'all don't gotta worry I got this shit controlled
Grandpa Ima make sure my Momma good even though she miss your soul
Daddy I'm gone make you proud I got lil bro up in his mode
I got a lot of shit to talk about I'm ready to unload

I get the mood swings in December
Darkest times they get remembered
Went from joyful holidays to depressing times up in the winter
The snow be hella cold but it's not that, that gives me shivers
It be knowing that my Daddy ain't gone be here for the winter uh
You ain't here and I just need you now
I need you here to hold me down
I'm steady thinking who am I without you in my life right now
It's been a cold cold December
I miss the bright days, September
It's dark no matter what I still don't got my Daddy my defender