Loyle Carner - Polyfilla Lyrics

Uh, trying not to be the man I didn't want to be
To be the person that you want to see
Uh, the night falls, I'm the one you meet
Stopping at the shops and buying something sweet
Uh, yo, I was willing, we was able, uh
Put a living on the table
Uh, the little image that I cradle
To empathise with the villains in the fable
That we relate to because it shapes you
I started doing everything that they do
Visions of a father that would taint you
Yeah, shatter like the glass I was chained to
Because I made you, anyone could make you
Yeah, but it's your father that could raise you
Uh, only a mother that could save you
We never had enough, still we make do

Yeah, to break the chains and the cycle
The days that are vital, the place as an idol
Yeah, see the name's in the title
The days, a disciple
This pain, it was my fault

Yeah, 'cause wide awake from the chains in the thread
All the pain that could stays in your head
Yeah, I understand, yo, I'm wildin'
No man is an island but you know I've been trying

Yeah, but is it good enough?
Yeah, shiver through my hoodie as I pull it up
Cycle through the city thinking stupid stuff
Acting like I'm quiet but I could erupt
And I did, flashing back when we was kids
I see my father blow his lid
Yeah, I used to say I hate the crib
Hate the doors, hate the fridge
Hate this fucking house I live
'Cause there's holes in every wall
And now there's holes in every wall when it was me
And I've been taken for a fool
I hold my son, yo, I've been trying to play it cool
But I'm the villain in the story
The exception to the rule
Did the pressure bussed a pipe, build a diamond?
Uh, the anger puts a fella on an island
Yeah, you hear the bang, feel the silence
Uh, but you know I've been trying

Yeah, to break the chains and the cycle
The days that are vital, the place as an idol
Yeah, see the name's in the title
The days, a disciple
This pain, it was my fault

Yeah, 'cause wide awake from the chains in the thread
All the pain that could stays in your head
Yeah, I understand, yo, I'm wildin'
No man is an island but you know I've been0

When I was younger, yo, I wanted to be famous, yeah
Now that I'm older, yo, I wish that I was nameless, yeah
The world's aimless, no one gives a fuck
Time's of the essence, I was running out of luck
Getting stuck for a couple bucks, tryna buss a nut
Filling up my plate but wasn't filling up your cup
Yo, I say it's fucked
They even killed the Wolverine
That was the only father figure that I'd seen, I was lost
Tryna find something to believe
All them aches and the pain, yeah, from crying on my knees
I was saying please, all this air that I breathe
Weren't a waste, the glass chin staying on my feet
I close my eyes and I listen to you sleep
Yeah, find some peace