K.W.A Pj - Mind Lyrics

Warfare inside of my mind in times
Feels like asylum ain't no escaping these insane times
Inside this body with a gold soul
I won't never bend break or fold don't wanna self destruct
I used to wanna end this life the most high gave to me
They can't stand the fact
That Im different that imma black sheep in the family
Always talked about or laughed at
They don't understand me or my mindset that I'm truly blessed with
Always counted out and thought of last

Warfare inside of my mind in times
Feels like asylum ain't no escapin these insane time

Lets take a blast back to the past
Back in the day when my uncle used to beat my ass fa being bad
You know whats crazy? i looked at him like the father i never had
Had gracious men teach me lessons instead, really raised me into a man
Even times i grew hatred for em
It was a lot of lessons taught through his words and his hands
It slick reminded me of the father
I never had taught me some shit that he never did
Back when i was nine, used to wanna take a nine and put em in a hearse
Look ma i know that it hurts but ya brother treated me the worst

I couldn't help but feeling resentment, felt like my family was cursed
I can't help but think i was a accident
Even worse i don't see why i was sent to this earth
I couldn't see Todd as a father
He just act like a lil girl or should i say a woman he actin feminine
Like he always got his panties in a twist
I see why ion see him as a father merely a bitch in sheep clothes

These ain't no real prophets or real family members feel like they devils in cloaks
Manipulated my mind, spoke evil behind my back and laughed in my face

It feel like warfare inside of my mind in times
Feels like asylum ain't no escapin these insane times

I never felt like my family was for me tell me who else can relate
I don't fuck with my family, where the real love i feel hate
Where the loyalty? all i hear is the snakes
Cause they saying I'm being weird, you being weird to me
Cause i don't fuck with my family, cause they don't really fuck with me