Korban Baxter - I Am Contemplating Suicide Lyrics

Look
Don't put no scores on my shit nigga
I don't fuck with that
I put heart in these words nigga
Y'all ain't feeling that
Can't tell if it's cause I'm fat
Or if I'm an asshole
But everybody leaves me in the end
These bars are mad cold
Niggas with the pack cold
Always hitting me up just to cop some gas
Nigga how'd you get my number in the first place I gotta ask
I lost UPS now I'm scrambling
Tryna get by off of stimmy checks
Momma on my ass said I gotta get a job
But I got this rap shit on my knees I'm pleading God
Can I make it in this scene that I'm treadin' on
Or will I end up another fuck up that couldn't make a song
Look yeah
My voice is fucking trash
How could you listen past the 30 second track nigga
I'm in my head thinking that it's fucking ass
Sitting on pineapples pink now I'm bout to fuckin crash
Wasting time in the filth
It's fucking terrible
Waiting on a deal
Yeah I'm waiting on a miracle
It's time that's imperial
Begging for a chance
But now I'm turning cynical
We all in the pits nigga
We all geeking out
Off a fucking pound
Tryna reach heaven
OD off the ground
Shots in the dark
One stab in the heart
And it's all gone dark
Yeah it's all gone

Look
Don't put no scores on my shit nigga
I don't fuck with that
I put heart in these words nigga
Y'all ain't feeling that
Can't tell if it's cause I'm fat
Or if I'm an asshole
But everybody leaves me in the end
These bars are mad cold
Niggas with the pack cold
Always hitting me up just to cop some gas
Nigga how'd you get my number in the first place I gotta ask
I lost UPS now I'm scrambling
Tryna get by off of stimmy checks
Momma on my ass said I gotta get a job
But I got this rap shit on my knees I'm pleading God
Can I make it in this scene that I'm treadin' on
Or will I end up another fuck up that couldn't make a song
Look yeah
My voice is fucking trash
How could you listen past the 30 second track nigga
I'm in my head thinking that it's fucking ass
Sitting on pineapples pink now I'm bout to fuckin crash
Wasting time in the filth
It's fucking terrible
Waiting on a deal
Yeah I'm waiting on a miracle
It's time that's imperial
Begging for a chance
But now I'm turning cynical
We all in the pits nigga
We all geeking out
Off a fucking pound
Tryna reach heaven
OD off the ground
Shots in the dark
One stab in the heart
And it's all gone dark
Yeah it's all gone