KD Haley - Actually Tears Lyrics

I don't ever show the pain
I be cappin when they ask me if I'm Straight
But inside I really ain't
See I gotta be strong even though I'm Bout to Break
Naw don't mind what ya seeing on My face
Although I might just tell you that it's Not what it Appears
But these are actually tears
Searching for the words
Cause I just don't know what to say
Still can't believe you gone
Although it's been a couple days
I'm in and out wit emotion
Almost broke down today
I'm struggling
Cause this right here a different type Of pain
I miss the days when we was kids We Was Always together
And no matter our differences
We be there for each other
Hooping in different hoods
Whoever guarding is suffered
We was taking ankles on the daily
Just me and my brother
I can't believe that this happen I'm Still in shock
You was doing so much better
And just got coo wit ya pops
You was always hard working
Just tryna get off the block
Was pose to see success together
This wasn't part of the plot
My potna in crime
Until the end
My brother
My best friend
How I'm pose to move on wit this Pain
And tell my son he'll never see you Again
I don't ever show the pain
I be cappin when they ask me if I'm Straight
But inside I really ain't
See I gotta be strong even though I'm Bout to Break
Naw don't mind what ya seeing on My face
Although I might just tell you that it's Not what it Appears
But these are actually tears
My and my sister really going Through it
My sister birthday coming up
Don't know if she can do it
It really wasn't that long ago
When we helped her with moving
I know she know you love her
And don't want her day to be ruined
Naw
And I know you and ya mama
Had ya differences
But she love you more than life
It's just so hard to deal wit this
She know you loved her too
And she strong even though she Feeling it
I thank God he let her her give me The best Friend I ever kicked it wit
I know that internally you was Always fighting
Peace was something that you had a Hard Time Finding
I know you gone and I hate it
Don't like it
But now yo beautiful soul in a better Place Shining
I'm hurting inside
But I guess I gotta put on this facade
You was always searching
So I guess the day I lost you
Is when you found God
I don't ever show the pain
I be cappin when they ask me if I'm Straight
But inside I really ain't
See I gotta be strong even though I'm Bout to Break
Naw don't mind what ya seeing on My face
Although I might just tell you that it's Not what it Appears
But these are actually tears

I don't ever show the pain
I be cappin when they ask me if I'm Straight
But inside I really ain't
See I gotta be strong even though I'm Bout to Break
Naw don't mind what ya seeing on My face
Although I might just tell you that it's Not what it Appears
But these are actually tears
Searching for the words
Cause I just don't know what to say
Still can't believe you gone
Although it's been a couple days
I'm in and out wit emotion
Almost broke down today
I'm struggling
Cause this right here a different type Of pain
I miss the days when we was kids We Was Always together
And no matter our differences
We be there for each other
Hooping in different hoods
Whoever guarding is suffered
We was taking ankles on the daily
Just me and my brother
I can't believe that this happen I'm Still in shock
You was doing so much better
And just got coo wit ya pops
You was always hard working
Just tryna get off the block
Was pose to see success together
This wasn't part of the plot
My potna in crime
Until the end
My brother
My best friend
How I'm pose to move on wit this Pain
And tell my son he'll never see you Again
I don't ever show the pain
I be cappin when they ask me if I'm Straight
But inside I really ain't
See I gotta be strong even though I'm Bout to Break
Naw don't mind what ya seeing on My face
Although I might just tell you that it's Not what it Appears
But these are actually tears
My and my sister really going Through it
My sister birthday coming up
Don't know if she can do it
It really wasn't that long ago
When we helped her with moving
I know she know you love her
And don't want her day to be ruined
Naw
And I know you and ya mama
Had ya differences
But she love you more than life
It's just so hard to deal wit this
She know you loved her too
And she strong even though she Feeling it
I thank God he let her her give me The best Friend I ever kicked it wit
I know that internally you was Always fighting
Peace was something that you had a Hard Time Finding
I know you gone and I hate it
Don't like it
But now yo beautiful soul in a better Place Shining
I'm hurting inside
But I guess I gotta put on this facade
You was always searching
So I guess the day I lost you
Is when you found God
I don't ever show the pain
I be cappin when they ask me if I'm Straight
But inside I really ain't
See I gotta be strong even though I'm Bout to Break
Naw don't mind what ya seeing on My face
Although I might just tell you that it's Not what it Appears
But these are actually tears