Julien Baker - Ringside Lyrics

Beat myself until I'm bloody
And I'll give you a ringside seat
You say that it's embarrassing
I'm sorry that you had to see me like that

So you could either watch me drown
Or try to save me while I drag you down
Want to fix it but I don't know how
It isn't fair to make you wait around
While all your friends are going out

So Jesus, can you help me now
Trade me in, oh, for a briar crown
Is there anybody coming back for me
If they ever were, they are not now

So what's there left to talk about
I'm holding on
Just like a scratch off ticket
How I dig my nails into your skin

Honey, I'm not stupid
I know no one wins this kind of thing
It's just another way to kill an hour
Wishing I was different
Nobody deserves a second chance
But honey, I keep getting them

Like a scratch off ticket
How you dig your nails into my skin
Honey, I'm not stupid
I know no one wins this kind of thing
It's just another way to kill an hour
Wishing I were different
Nobody deserves a second chance
But I keep giving them