Johniepee, Elodie - Blind Faith Lyrics

Dear God
I've never done this before
But I thought I'd reach out man
I need your support
I feel like an idiot, just me and these walls
But theres meaning behind the scenery and I'm fiending for more
I don't complain much
But life's dealt me a shit hand
Tried to pull me under
Faster than quicksand
I've been resilient, struggling I really am
Really I'm just looking for a way to be the bigger man
Lone wolf since 5 or 6
Shit, I've had to be a survivalist
And now I'm 24 and had my childhood missed
And I guess I'm wishing back to a time before this shit
Before all the fights and the sleepless nights
Before mum relapsed about a thousand times
Before she was diagnosed by a man in a white coat
Before the scars were how we're now defined
I've been searching for the meaning through all of this
I thought you might grant me an audience
I wanna believe in you, but it's hard as shit
Cos I can't see you
But you might exist
Amen

Knock knock who's there, I can't find you
I've been searching everyday
I'm so sick of all the hiding
Please oh please just show your face
Why are all the lights so blinding
That just seem to block my way
I'll keep walking and keep trying through the night, I've got blind faith

Dear Son
I thought I'd write back
I Made you in 9-2
And you're still on that right track
Proud of you and how you handle my tests
And every time you come through the other side, I'm really impressed
Apologies if I seem harsh
If every, task I sent left your heartstrings scarred
But did you stop to think, when life seems hard
I'm moulding you to be stronger than you think you are
I got all your prayers, didn't miss your call once
I'm hearing every cry of my every daughter and son
I can, count every hair on your head and tear that you've cried
I know every single fear that you're holding inside
I know your mum's unwell and I let that pass
But without her being her, you wouldn't of grown this fast
Everything has purpose, one day you will see
That I've loved you since I made you unconditionally, G

Knock knock who's there, I can't find you
I've been searching everyday
I'm so sick of all the hiding
Please oh please just show your face
Why are all the lights so blinding
That just seem to block my way
I'll keep walking and keep trying through the night, I've got blind faith

Hey it's me again
Talking to the walls
Waiting for your reply
But getting none at all
I wanna know you're real
Believe it in my heart
But it's hard to believe in light when you're sleeping in the dark
I've, been digging through your book like an archive
Been looking to the stars in the night sky
I wonder why I feel connected like the Wi-fi
And where this all fits, sitting on your timeline
And is it coming to the end?
Cos the worlds burning
Hard to stay above the surface in this dirt furnace
What's the purpose of speaking life into something you created
If you don't help em out when they're all hurting
But all your revelations happen everyday
Could be more than chance? Anyways, I thought I'd pray
It's like I'm finding faith facing the fire
I just pray you hear my cries n I'm not wasting my time
John

Knock knock who's there, I can't find you
I've been searching everyday
I'm so sick of all the hiding
please oh please just show your face
Why are all the lights so blinding
That just seem to block my way
I'll keep walking and keep trying through the night, I've got blind faith

Dear Son
I'm sorry Earth's stuck in this state
But what did you expect, greed's running your place
I gave everyone a chance, when I started your race
But worshipping the money and the mirror, what a mistake
In the, garden I made, it started with snakes
And that snake told you all to just lie to my face
Thought I'd create a paradise an incredible place
But now it's looking like a wasteland, starting to break
I love you more than anything
But everyone hates
It's hard, when your own children want your head on a stake
It's hard, you've never seen me but I'm wanting your faith
You'll never understand my ways, but I just wanted to say
All the loved ones you miss are here safe with me
And if I posted these letters, would you have faith in me?
I've given you countless signs, now it's up to you
Sincerely your father
And I'll see you soon