Joanna Perricone - Dearly Departed Lyrics

I could see the fear in your eyes, didn't like you hooked up to wires
I lost composure, 'cause you looked so tired
Had all the features of my uncle, but where the hell did he go
Its like someone had stole his body and his usual glow
He couldn't speak, 'cause there were all these tubes down his throat
I held his hand and let reality soak
Even today, I'm biting back these tears while I write
And holding onto memories like they were property rights
A young teenager, I didn't really know you at all
Had heard you lived in California and dabbled in golf
And I thought your house was like the illest thing that I'd ever seen
And though we had our own apartment, we'd just naturally convene
And I grew closer to my cousin, got to really know my Auntie
Had my first death threat in middle school that still haunts me
Then Mom said we were moving again and I'd adjust
But this time, y'all were coming with us

Dearly Departed
And I know that you're around me
I let you memories and love just surround me
Dearly Departed
And I hope you're in a healthy place
Wish that I could see your face, nobody could fill the space
Dearly Departed
Let your light shine down when my day seems dark
And I am falling apart
Dearly Departed
You won't ever be forgotten
I will carry you close, I will carry you close
Dearly Departed

No goodbye to you, 'cause you forbade it
And when we tried to bring it up, there was no persuading
You had made up your mind, no elephant in the room
Can't help but curse at the clouds, "My uncle taken too soon!"
Who to blame except the fucking cancer
All this anger and no answers
See we don't really talk in my house
Collecting tears on my blouse, attempt to figure it out
No, you are really there in that box
I heard the sobbing around me, but I just sat there in shock
Filled with regret, 'cause I should've visited sooner
And I never told you, but I love your sense of humor
And I loved your corny jokes and I love how you started to love cats
Sixty playing hockey, what a bad-ass
The dad I never had, but this connection
Stand at his grave and try to resurrect him

Dearly Departed
And I know that you're around me
I let you memories and love just surround me
Dearly Departed
And I hope you're in a healthy place
Wish that I could see your face, nobody could fill the space
Dearly Departed
Let your light shine down when my day seems dark
And I am falling apart
Dearly Departed
You won't ever be forgotten
I will carry you close, I will carry you close
Dearly Departed

I can feel your energy and hear your laugh
For three minutes of your presence, I'd trade this track
But that ain't how it works in this dimension
Different set of rules, for you it was inception
And I guess I finally need to make my peace with this
Knew you were worried bout' the future like your niece is
And I guess I finally need to make my peace with this
And I guess this is the start of me releasing it

Dearly Departed
And I know that you're around me
I let you memories and love just surround me
Dearly Departed
And I hope you're in a healthy place
Wish that I could see your face, nobody could fill the space
Dearly Departed
Let your light shine down when my day seems dark
And I am falling apart
Dearly Departed
You won't ever be forgotten
I will carry you close, I will carry you close
Dearly Departed