Javion Bishop, itsactuallykai - JEWELS / FOREVER YOURS Lyrics

I'm just going through the motions, got me feeling jaded
This year alone I hit too many phases
Feel like a ghost in shell, and my real self is locked inside a mental basement
Feel like I need me some medication

I'm never fettered by a single ounce of hesitation
Religious studies serving as my form of meditation, look
I wasn't placed in a situation where I could be complacent
They just not as dedicated

I went from, 9 songs last summer to 4 albums this year man
You don't even compare to my work ethic
Hurt feelings and learned lessons
Pushed me to move better and do better

I can never find the words so I use letters
Open confessionals; it's hard to live content in the spotlight
When you know that your demons wait in the dressing room
And all your insecurities eat away at what's left of you
So what's correct to do?

I kept my cool, I'm dealing with depression I couldn't focus in school
I'm dealing with rejection whenever I'm making moves
I'm feeling under pressure but pressure can make a jewel
I'm fixing all my messes with hypothetical tools

It's mental architecture tryna map out my thoughts
I see the signs and get lost
I got a lot on my heart, and even more on my conscience pray
That you guiding me lord
Heavenly Father I know that I ain't the

Ideal son
I'm tryna find my purpose
I know you go one for me
That's why I never stop working
And should this be the last time you hear my voice
I put my soul in this music now it's forever yours

Time is not our friend all I got is this music
Talking to ourselves what we got is confusing
Days keep getting harder, my heart's full of bruises
But when you get lost you can always believe that

I'll be there for you
When you're down
Don't want you to give up
Cause I'm always around

When you get lost
You can find yourself in me
You can find yourself in me

When you get lost
You can find yourself in me
You can find yourself in me

When you get lost
You can find yourself in me
You can find yourself in me

I'm forever yours...

Forever yours