Jabez Z - .love again. Lyrics

Lately, I've had a hard time finding love
'Cause love is one of the hardest things to find
It difficult 'cause every time I rise above
I tend to lose your mind
Focus on nothin' else but passion
Nothin' else but her
Nothin' else but what happened
Once I lost the laughter
I broke her heart, and I rap that she broke mine
I say that 'cause she never gave me the time
Time to change what happened, instead she cried
And left me to fall behind
So instead, I grew without her around
I swam so deep, that I couldn't handle it when I drowned
Thought about nothin' but my addiction, and it let her down
Ruined my life, the one thing that made me proud

So far, that's it
The worst year of my life
Livin' with the regret, that I may have found the perfect wife
The one that left me, without wanting a retry
I guess it's time now to live my own life
It hasn't been all bad, just thoughts in my head
The mental breakdowns, when I break down, the tears that I shed
I stay distracted by work, and magic, and lyin' to my friends
But if I am being honest, I missed her smile, and the time that we spent
I want it back, but I know that it's over
I know I made mistakes, I'll just have to learn when I'm older
Learn that someone is waiting for me to hold her
And once I find that person, I will never let go of her
So please, share your stories, I wanna hear what their about
See how you've grown, how you overcame your doubt
See if your better off with someone better now
So maybe, just maybe, there is someone out there for me to love somehow
I'm Always Strong