J Molley - Up To Lyrics

What am I up to
You never checked on me when I was down baby fuck you
You get love too
She wanna know where I been wanna what I’ve gone through
Love make me nauseous
There isn’t a girl that I’ve met that don’t make me feel cautious
Love is too painful
I can’t be sitting here questioning if shawty faithful
Girl you told me you loved me so why did you leave
Kept me warm in the night till you left me freeze
Call me a lie but don’t call me a cheat
You did that in your own bitch it ain’t hard to see
I been depressed since you did that to me (I been depressed since you did that to me)
Harder than said when they tell me to breathe

What have I come to I wasn’t always addicted to drugs
I used to pop me a pill when I want now I can’t sleep since I quit smoking blunt
Life ain’t a blessing
After my daddy left I couldn’t help but stop stressing
Ain’t tryna press him but I think the problems I have need a little addressing
Shits been tough for me since I left you
Girl don’t fuck with me like I wrecked you
Shits been tough for m since my dad left
Brands don’t fuck with me for my bad rep
I been running from my demons lately
Fuck the money it won’t help me face these
Suicide just can’t help but plague me
Every night I need help come save me

What am I up to
You never checked on me when I was down baby fuck you
You get love too
She wanna know where I been wanna what I’ve gone through
Love make me nauseous
There isn’t a girl that I’ve met that don’t make me feel cautious
Love is too painful
I can’t be sitting here questioning if shawty faithful
Girl you told me you loved me so why did you leave
Kept me warm in the night till you left me freeze
Call me a lie but don’t call me a cheat
You did that in your own bitch it ain’t hard to see
I been depressed since you did that to me (I been depressed since you did that to me)
Harder than said when they tell me to breathe

I need patience I done tried meditation
This is deeper think I need medication
Where you been I think they want explanations
Fuck your angels I’m the devils creation
Went to a psych ward I was not psyched for it
Fuck all these white boards they just make my eyes sore
They made me listen and gave me prescriptions
I had listen to all their descriptions
I just wanna sleep
Baby let me be
I don’t wanna speak
Let me be in peace
I just wanna die
Life is such a lie
Drinking more codeine I ain’t tryna cry
Please don’t phone I will not reply

What am I up to
You never checked on me when I was down baby fuck you
You get love too
She wanna know where I been wanna what I’ve gone through
Love make me nauseous
There isn’t a girl that I’ve met that don’t make me feel cautious
Love is too painful
I can’t be sitting here questioning if shawty faithful
You told me you loved me so why did you leave
Kept me warm in the night till you left me freeze
Call me a lie but don’t call me a cheat
You did that in your own bitch it ain’t hard to see
I been depressed since you did that to me
Harder than said when they tell me to breathe