Iskwirel - hello, Lyrics

Hello
I'm alone again
Cut off a few of my friends
Stuck with these thoughts in my head
I know
It's your own damn fault
I'm getting tired in my skin
Ruined but barely broken in

I see people from high school doing everything they want
I quit my job I can't stable and I'm not catching any sleep
Can't look myself in the mirror because of what I've become
If you stare me right in the eyes
I hope you see the sun

Hey
I am quote on quote a late bloomer
Can you praise me for who I'm becoming
Instead of pointing out my flaws
Hey
Could I get on the plane
A little sooner
Seems kinda sad
But I just miss what I used to have

It's a little pathetic
It's like some puppy eyes
Don't leave me on the streets so I can sit there and whine
I won't beg for you to stay
But my trauma says otherwise
Close myself off
Do not give out my all
This is my queue to hide

Hello
I hope you hear him
He's been very tired to hide
And he's gasping for a breath
I know
You don't have to hide
It's a scary world but you
Have so many people on your side

But what about my friends and my family
What will they think of me
I'm terrified they'll toss me aside
And never want the likes of me
How about my mother or my father
Or whoever looks over me
Will they still be there
Will they still care
Will they still want me
How couldn't you want me

I tend overthink and I can't put a pause on that
I want to be stable so I am able to live as I want
Can't look myself in the mirror because it's not who I am
Stare myself right in the eyes
I feel so confused