Hi-Polar, Racoon, Tim Pitchford - Still Staring At Your Coffin Lyrics

I could've done more, so my family believed
I'm sorry that I couldn't be what you need
I'm sorry I thought it was time to leave
I know that you're struggling, your head on your knees
I'm sorry I failed, never found my own way
I'm sorry I'm bringing such cloudy days
My purpose was lost, the water kept rising
I said I was happy, deep down I was lying
Fell victim to the game, we all know as life
This will be the last thing that I ever write
The only solution is what you now know
But I'll look down and smile as I watch you all grow
This is my decision, no one will understand
I know this is pathetic, I'm supposed to be a man
But I just can't do it and I've tried and I've tried
When you read this letter please do not cry
I just read your letter, why did you go
You faced the demons you never would show
I should have done more, I should've been there
I'm sorry that you felt that nobody would care
But this is a tragedy, so young and bright
I have been praying, night after night
The pain that you felt, no one should feel
And nobody knew, is this even real
But I can't give support, be there when you need
All that you wanted was someone to lead
In the right direction, rise from where you were
What was your mindset, cause I can't be sure
But this just ain't you, all I saw was smiles
Before all this happened, no answer when I dialed
I'm paralyzed with grief, I've been stuck in my house
Trying to understand, what was this all about
I'm angry that your'e gone, that I wasn't there
This is so crazy, and I know I'm not prepared
To face another death, especially you
Staring at your coffin is the worst kind of view
So much potential, why did it have to end
You were like a brother, so much more than a friend
This is not the answer, this is not the way
And taking your own life will never be okay
Everybody grieving, another young soul leaving
So many questions, yet not so much believing
Heads hung low, tears forming puddles
We need to do better, while facing this struggle
You won't be forgotten, my life is now yours
If you are listening, you were always adored
If we knew better, you'd be here today
Thinking of you brother, as this song plays
Now I've read your letter, I wish you were here
Still so many questions, and I'm covered in tears
Nothing lasts forever, this much is true
I'm still staring at your coffin, still missing you

I could've done more, so my family believed
I'm sorry that I couldn't be what you need
I'm sorry I thought it was time to leave
I know that you're struggling, your head on your knees
I'm sorry I failed, never found my own way
I'm sorry I'm bringing such cloudy days
My purpose was lost, the water kept rising
I said I was happy, deep down I was lying
Fell victim to the game, we all know as life
This will be the last thing that I ever write
The only solution is what you now know
But I'll look down and smile as I watch you all grow
This is my decision, no one will understand
I know this is pathetic, I'm supposed to be a man
But I just can't do it and I've tried and I've tried
When you read this letter please do not cry
I just read your letter, why did you go
You faced the demons you never would show
I should have done more, I should've been there
I'm sorry that you felt that nobody would care
But this is a tragedy, so young and bright
I have been praying, night after night
The pain that you felt, no one should feel
And nobody knew, is this even real
But I can't give support, be there when you need
All that you wanted was someone to lead
In the right direction, rise from where you were
What was your mindset, cause I can't be sure
But this just ain't you, all I saw was smiles
Before all this happened, no answer when I dialed
I'm paralyzed with grief, I've been stuck in my house
Trying to understand, what was this all about
I'm angry that your'e gone, that I wasn't there
This is so crazy, and I know I'm not prepared
To face another death, especially you
Staring at your coffin is the worst kind of view
So much potential, why did it have to end
You were like a brother, so much more than a friend
This is not the answer, this is not the way
And taking your own life will never be okay
Everybody grieving, another young soul leaving
So many questions, yet not so much believing
Heads hung low, tears forming puddles
We need to do better, while facing this struggle
You won't be forgotten, my life is now yours
If you are listening, you were always adored
If we knew better, you'd be here today
Thinking of you brother, as this song plays
Now I've read your letter, I wish you were here
Still so many questions, and I'm covered in tears
Nothing lasts forever, this much is true
I'm still staring at your coffin, still missing you