Hi-Polar, Racoon - Cry Lyrics

Once again I'm slowly crying my way to sleep
My wounds are unseen and are so so deep
Each Time I wish that I don't see tomorrow
My best friend has been my eternal sorrow

From the inside I truly know that I'm not bad from heart
But I fail again to understand on why I've had it so hard 
I tried many a times to turn it all around
I move forward but end up going in rounds
Misery and hopelessness is what surrounds
Because fate puts me back where I belong 
Which Is right back to the ground
Now my silence is the only sound

If I'm lucky to die
I'm sorry because I know you'll cry
There was not a lot in this life I could do
But remember baby no matter what I always loved you

If I'm lucky to die
I'm sorry because I knw you'll cry
My life has been a wreck which I can't rescue
But baby remember no matter what I have always loved you

Always loved you, hmm
Always loved you
Always loved you, hmm
Always loved you

Overall life as a whole
Has been very painful to my soul
And alone when I cry in bed at nights 
My heart feels like as it were pierced by knives 

One dream now that I can't realize
Is you becoming my lovely wife
A beautiful bride I'd visualize
You deserve better, my life I'll sacrifice
One dream now that I can't realize
Is you becoming my lovely wife
A beautiful bride I'd visualize
You deserve better, my life I'll sacrifice

I had no other options this how I dealt
I had no other notions , my mental health
I have yet another emotion oh my bipolar
Nikhil to you, and to the world goodbye this was Hi-Polar

And if I'm lucky to say goodbye 
I know that you'll try 
To do your best and stop me
But I can't take it no more so lemme be

And I'm sorry that you'll cry
If you come to know I die
There's so much I wish I could do 
But all I can say is that I love you