Godinho - Tulip Lyrics

7th grade was when I first saw you
A tulip in a garden filled with mildew
Innocent to love I knew nothing at the time
Your soul resembled some of that sweet lime
13 years old with no path to follow through
So every time we spoke it always felt taboo
You were a girl of mystery almost like a mime
I would think about you every single nighttime

8th grade now my obsession grew more
Every time I saw you butterflies hit my stomach
Palms sweaty knees weak my heart would hit the floor
I could never let my love for you hit the public
Clear the mildew vines are overtaking sure
Your rejection had kissed me now I'm loveless
Being with you was all that I could ask for
But you told all your friends my love was published

9th grade and we started to drift
I prayed every day that you could be with me
I weighed every option but you're my only wish
I strayed from the man that I wanted to be
I felt played when your two lips picked another wrist
So I felt the blade run down the river in this dead sea
I paid my dues but I was still living in a mist
I made my bed and faded nobody

16 years old with still no path to follow through
I'm a ghost filled with wrath because of you
Almost became a psychopath but I made do
We were never close, never rash, but I wanted too
A red rose splatter blood in this bathroom
Shadows in my mind telepath full of gloom
Chest exposed your warpath didn't let me bloom
No one knows about the aftermath from your fumes