Godinho - Dead Ladybugs/Head of a Bear Lyrics

I wrote these love letters with the blood of dead ladybugs
Glass half full of liquor red solo cup
Rum in my stomach tar in my lungs I can't control
When I think of you but I know just how to numb it slow
Our relationship was doomed from the start
Cannons crash put holes in Noah's Ark
This is waterloo and I would pull my bones apart
To mend another broken heart
These apples always tasted tart with poisoned roots
What did you expect from only Jokers in my deck of cards
Living large, we should've pressed restart but
Sixteen and naive what did I know
Seven deadly sins put my brain into a hell hole
Two devils ruled the same Hell
Lucifer and Lilith
Borderline mind had a bad habit, distort the image
Using tears to paint the mural of our love but
Nowadays I'm so messed up I'm pouring liquor in my Starbucks but
We look like we're in love but that was only on camera
Fight after fight
I was running out of stamina
When I was 19 I lost control of my anima
I'm just an animal
Take my vital organs throw my body into the marina
Cut the head off of a bear
Spill the entrails out
Blood all over my whip I gotta clean the stains out
Take the kitchen knife into my wrists about to pass out
Then we love so full of hate it fills our whole thoughts with doubt Break the triage souls Become oh so vacant
I spent years trying to change myself for your enslavement
Ticking time bomb left me in the streets forsaken
Apathetic eyes watching from afar just waiting
Doing drugs together maybe could've helped our pain
But I got the addict gene so I always get carried away
All we needed was some time apart to get better
But you didn't trust me enough I couldn't tell you bout the weather
A storm is coming nevermind just sunny days
Which would you rather hear?
That my life is full of pain?
Or a sweet lie to help you sprout your wings and fly
What's the answer matter you were always gonna say goodbye

I wrote these love letters with the blood of dead ladybugs
Glass half full of liquor red solo cup
Rum in my stomach tar in my lungs I can't control
When I think of you but I know just how to numb it slow
Our relationship was doomed from the start
Cannons crash put holes in Noah's Ark
This is waterloo and I would pull my bones apart
To mend another broken heart
These apples always tasted tart with poisoned roots
What did you expect from only Jokers in my deck of cards
Living large, we should've pressed restart but
Sixteen and naive what did I know
Seven deadly sins put my brain into a hell hole
Two devils ruled the same Hell
Lucifer and Lilith
Borderline mind had a bad habit, distort the image
Using tears to paint the mural of our love but
Nowadays I'm so messed up I'm pouring liquor in my Starbucks but
We look like we're in love but that was only on camera
Fight after fight
I was running out of stamina
When I was 19 I lost control of my anima
I'm just an animal
Take my vital organs throw my body into the marina
Cut the head off of a bear
Spill the entrails out
Blood all over my whip I gotta clean the stains out
Take the kitchen knife into my wrists about to pass out
Then we love so full of hate it fills our whole thoughts with doubt Break the triage souls Become oh so vacant
I spent years trying to change myself for your enslavement
Ticking time bomb left me in the streets forsaken
Apathetic eyes watching from afar just waiting
Doing drugs together maybe could've helped our pain
But I got the addict gene so I always get carried away
All we needed was some time apart to get better
But you didn't trust me enough I couldn't tell you bout the weather
A storm is coming nevermind just sunny days
Which would you rather hear?
That my life is full of pain?
Or a sweet lie to help you sprout your wings and fly
What's the answer matter you were always gonna say goodbye