Girls Against Abuse, Kayla Ray - Hell of a Drug Lyrics

I noticed our tattoo in the mirror today
My salty eyes filled up and I started to shake
But I can't look away
Then Dave came on he was singing that goddamn song
I turned it off for my own sake
Cause the smallest reminders of you take me back to the start
There's a fire inside me burning a whole through my heart
I'm destructive and triggered
I'm so stuck and bitter
It's poison in my blood
I need a release
Just a minute of peace
But this anger's a hell of a drug
This anger's a hell of a drug
And it's been a dizzy year on this merry-go-round We either fight and cry or we don't make a sound It just brings me down
The air feels thick and my body feels so sick
I thought I'd be okay by now
But the smallest reminders of you take me back to the start
There's a fire inside me burning a whole through my heart
I'm destructive and triggered
I'm so stuck and bitter
It's poison in my blood
I need a release
Just a minute of peace
But this anger's a hell of a drug
This anger's a hell of a drug
If I stay mad then I don't have to feel
Anything that's actually real
Your words like knives they cut me down so small Thought I was stronger but I had so far to fall
And silence is just easier that's why I haven't called
Cause the smallest reminders of you take me back to the start
Oh I'm destructive and triggered I'm so stuck and bitter
It's poison in my blood
When the smallest reminders of you take me back to the start
Oh I'm destructive and triggered I'm so stuck and bitter
It's poison in my blood
I need a release
Just a minute of peace
But this anger's a hell of a drug
This anger's a hell of a drug

I noticed our tattoo in the mirror today
My salty eyes filled up and I started to shake
But I can't look away
Then Dave came on he was singing that goddamn song
I turned it off for my own sake
Cause the smallest reminders of you take me back to the start
There's a fire inside me burning a whole through my heart
I'm destructive and triggered
I'm so stuck and bitter
It's poison in my blood
I need a release
Just a minute of peace
But this anger's a hell of a drug
This anger's a hell of a drug
And it's been a dizzy year on this merry-go-round We either fight and cry or we don't make a sound It just brings me down
The air feels thick and my body feels so sick
I thought I'd be okay by now
But the smallest reminders of you take me back to the start
There's a fire inside me burning a whole through my heart
I'm destructive and triggered
I'm so stuck and bitter
It's poison in my blood
I need a release
Just a minute of peace
But this anger's a hell of a drug
This anger's a hell of a drug
If I stay mad then I don't have to feel
Anything that's actually real
Your words like knives they cut me down so small Thought I was stronger but I had so far to fall
And silence is just easier that's why I haven't called
Cause the smallest reminders of you take me back to the start
Oh I'm destructive and triggered I'm so stuck and bitter
It's poison in my blood
When the smallest reminders of you take me back to the start
Oh I'm destructive and triggered I'm so stuck and bitter
It's poison in my blood
I need a release
Just a minute of peace
But this anger's a hell of a drug
This anger's a hell of a drug