Fully Involved - Fan or Follower Lyrics

I can't go on living life like this
On this non-stop walk of shame
When I keep on with unsubstantialness
With no one but myself to blame

Search me, O God, and know my heart
Test me and know my anxious thoughts
Now am I a fan or am I a follower
Are you really my number one?

I stand my ground, head out of the pit
How long will this righteousness last?
With every future day, will I escape dismay?
Or get caught in the loop of past

Search me, O God, and know my heart
Test me and know my anxious thoughts
Now am I a fan or am I a follower
Are you really my number one?

A thousand times a sinner, a thousand times a fool
A thousand times forgiven without faith as my own tool
I know that I can serve you, but life gets in the way
But I know my path to glory needs to start today

Search me, O God, and know my heart
Test me and know my anxious thoughts
Search me for any offenses
Show me the way, I beg, assist, oooh
Am I a fan or am I a follower
Am I a fan or am I a follower
Now am I a fan or am I a follower
Are you really my number one?