Foxhound - One Car Pileup Lyrics

I used to blame the world for all my suffering and pain
An ego so inflated, I lost the lines between the lanes
My eternal quest was to pacify myself
I dove in headfirst to problems
My heart rotted on the shelf
And then I crashed
I found nothing at the bottom
I want to find a way back into the light
I've tried so hard to move on but I just feel stuck
In a cycle of self-hate, regret, and bad luck
Do I still sound too selfish or am I making sense?
Tired of feeling so torn, tired of riding the fence
I want to learn to grow and love again
Believe me, I look so forward to when
I'm proud of who I am
I want to be proud of who I am
What's better?
To fade into the black or to claw your way back?
I know the answer I just don't care for the sentiment
I guess that I'm already on my way