F.N. - Mother Tongue Lyrics

Where am I from if I'm not from here
Years of debris make it all unclear
Maybe there's no use fighting it
Cause I've called it home since '96
So am I stuck living on frontiers

I flipped through the photos
When time moved in slow-mo
But I don't see nothing

Reliving the moments
Distorted by motion
But I don't see nothing

I know I was born my mother's son
So why did I reject my mother tongue
I wish I could retrace the steps I'd run
To be closer to you mama
Closer to you ma

You say you love me, but I've gone deaf
It's something to say when there's nothing left
When all of the weight falls into my hands
I'll drown in the ocean, between two lands
I'd say goodbye but I'm out of breath

I flipped through the photos
When time moved in slow-mo
But I don't see nothing

Reliving the moments
Distorted by motion
But I don't see nothing

I know I was born my mother's son
So why did I reject my mother tongue
I wish I could retrace the steps I'd run
To be closer to you mama
Closer to you ma

Was I ashamed of my bloodline
When the words escaped my mind
Well now it hurts to be tongue-tied

I was too young to listen
Then I built all this distance
But I still bleed gold and crimson

Got no angel left on my shoulder
To tell me to keep pushing the boulder
Pushing til it rolls me over

Now I'm looking in from the outside
Trying to pass the blame but it's all mine
Burning like a leaf in a wildfire