Flock of Dimes - Awake for the Sunrise Lyrics

I didn't want to be awake for the sunrise
But my heart wouldn't let me rest
I didn't want to see the light of the morning
With an aching in my chest

So does fire beget fire
As a warning? As a test?
I only wanted to know you better
I only thought that I knew you best

I didn't think I was a terrible liar
But I am when I need it most
Making a sorry attempt at compassion
With a hand halfway down my throat

So does life carry forth
If the station is remote?
Hope is still keeping my head above water
'Til the moment before I choke

There is a future where we're resting easy
On the other side of us
But I'd rather feel the full wrath of destruction
Than remember the things I've done

I gave up on that life
As I gave myself to you
And I deserve it, the very worst of it
I deserve it, I know I do
And I deserve it, the very worst of it
I deserve it, I know I do