Eric Lualdi - Forty Lyrics

And I'm back
It hasn't been long
How can you miss me if I'm never gone
But I'm always gone
I'll get to that soon
Happy birthday boy break out the balloons
Float
Try to let your sense of self go
Forgive yourself for all the things you didn't know
I didn't know much
I didn't know that I didn't know though
That's the story of my life so
Forty
Now I'm on my middle age shit
Like dropping rap records
If you got the fiddle play it
And I know that kid will say shit
The one inside of me That felt he wasn't good enough
But I got here in spite of me
And I'm not trying to be
Anything at all
I think this in a vacuum so I sing it to the wall

Yeah echoes down the hall
Six months later I'm recording this verse
But it's just a few seconds in the headphones
It's unstable time in the universe
You adjust new check in to the dead zone
We wanna live long
But I imagine
It all goes by in an instant
Whether you live to not recognize yourself
In the mirror or you die as an infant

When I say I'm always gone that's only half right
I always am but I forget
Start to get caught up in being here past life
Change the lane don't get upset
But I'm always gone I cease to be
I begin to notice there's no me
My ego in protest suddenly
Starts to grow and puts on a little show
And on bad days I believe that the story's pain is serious
And when I meditate alot I see it for the game it really is

I never left
But I have been gone
And back so many times
It's old hat big yawn
But that piece that is the constant
Is confident
That there's a few more ways to share the message stopping it
From the muzzle of self doubt
So it might be heard
That's why I write these words
Yeah
Organized the beats too
This is me at forty
Hi
It's nice to meet you