Envyus - The Void Lyrics

Struggling hard to revive now
I don't wanna say what I feel inside now
Played me for a fool a second time now
Listing regrets, join the line now
Used to hold you close when we'd lie down
Now I'm feeling haunted out in my town
Cause I see your face when I walk around
I can see your footprints in the pavement
Hard to remember where the days went
When I only used to listen, not saying shit
And you'd leave me cold at night, on the same shit
But then I let you go and the stage switched
And you were begging for a part up on my script
And you were begging for a place up on my dick
And you were so damn scared of a replacement
I had to lose you to find my destination, damn

I just need the void filled
Can you feel the ambiance
The old me was the boy you killed
I can't be something I'm not

I just need the void filled
Can you feel the ambiance
The old me was the boy you killed
I can't be something I'm not

I'mma conquer the abyss and put some diamonds on my fist
I bet when I get rich, I'm the one she's gonna miss
Put some gold up on my teeth and I'm the one she'll wanna kiss
I remember when you said you weren't mine you were his
But now that energy is all reversed
I should've been the one you put first
I flirted with the thought of me leaving like Kurt
You know I had your back from good to bad to bad to worse
I would pray I'd see your ex at your house when I lurked
The same dude that had you crying makeup on my shirt
Had me feeling less than dirt and way more than fucking hurt
Led me by my hand to the door of my hearse
Even made me contemplate stepping foot inside a church
But I'd rather just get lost in my work
Writing out my rage to these beats and go berserk
Why'd you throw it all away
I don't need a fucking answer

I just need the void filled
Can you feel the ambiance
The old me was the boy you killed
I can't be something I'm not

I just need the void filled
Can you feel the ambiance
The old me was the boy you killed
I can't be something I'm not

I can hear your heartbeat drum
That depression's like a cloud that can cover up the sun
Just so you don't feel bad I play like I'm dumb
Cause I always want you happy cause you were my number one
Sometimes writing out this sad shit isn't fun
But it's the only thing that works so it's gotta be done
Pain on the inside but now I'm getting numb
I think we met too young