Envyus - drifting Lyrics

Using the emotions and all of the words he released into the world
I created an avatar
One made of spirits and water but solid and real enough
It was him, another him
Only years younger
It startled him at first but they talked for days
Maybe a couple weeks
This was a turning point for him
And I don't regret my interjection in the least

I been drifting on the waves at night
The old me sitting at my side
We've been talking for a little while
I see the pain and the hurt in his eyes
He said tell me how to get right
Tell me when I'm not gonna cry no more
Tell me when I'm not gonna lie no more
I said man I hate to break the news
But I'm still going through it and I'm just like you
My moods like the tide how it moves with the moon
I still think about dying too
I still talk like a lying fool
But don't worry I've been trying to improve
And it's worked some
We're damaged and it's a curse younging
Just keep working just keep stunting
Just keep wanting what's best for you
Use that stress and impress the crew
Then spread your wings and impress a few more
Man that's all that I got for you
Just know that you got it dude
He said, fuck you
Fuck this
Fuck whoever don't agree with me cause I'm done waiting
I'm done waiting on healing
And I'm done fighting my demons
And I'm done fucking sinking
And I'm done fucking pleading with this bitch to love me
Begging for this bitch to want me
Giving all of myself into someone who don't even touch me
I stopped him there and said look I agree
But just know you bout to make an enemy
And everything that you thought is now meant to be
Best that you start moving carefully
Trust is now something you got that's embarrassing
Cause it's your friend that's gone stab you eventually
I hope you're ready cause I wasn't
And that's my advice

Don't let them hurt me
I wish I could
Do I get mercy
Don't even worry
Does it all turn out how it should
Just drift with me and we'll be good
Just drift with me
Just drift with me
Just drift with me
Just drift with me

As we sat there gazing at the moon and the stars
The waves surging with energy charged
Dispersing our thoughts like gas in the engine of a car
Spirit and mind drifting far while our bodies stayed still
Reflecting on the places we had been chilled inside at
Sit and cried at died, flied at

Drifting with no destination
Listening to all of our regrets and hesitations
Our love and dedications
Everything that made us is everything that breaks us still to this day
Still it doesn't fade maybe I just hold the pain so I can keep creating
Bracing for the impact cause I can see the land
And our ship is moving fast
I just know we're gonna crash soon
Drifting in our bad moods land ho stand to

As we hit the beaches I watched as the old me started to fade
Fear in his young eyes until he turned translucent and gray
And he started to say something that was lost to the winds and the ages
He became faceless and transported away with grace and I waved

Drifting with no destination
Listening to all of our regrets and hesitations
Our love and dedications
Everything that made us is everything that breaks us still to this day
Still, it doesn't fade
It never fades

Before he left this small island he had landed on, this small paradise
He picked up tiny stones
Beautiful little geodes
And skipped them across this shore of white beaches