Envyus - Destiny Lyrics

I don't really know if I'm deserving
Of the life that I'm chasing
I'm always on the inside observing
Why do I have thoughts of hatred
Spiritual materialistic yearning
Desire for my aspirations
Everything I have is cause I've earned it
Hard to follow obligations
I don't wanna ever stop learning
This is just shit I'm contemplating
I hope that I don't see your back turning
Unless it's just to see you take it
I hope that you can see that I'm worthy
I want nothing more than to make it
I try to move forward when I'm hurting
I can feel my body shaking
I see the sunrise and it's early
But still I see 'em all shading
I've been talking so much have you heard me
You're not the only one who's aching
Organs on fire from my fury
I'm terrified of aging
I keep a select few near me
I'll keep em there till I'm ancient
I'm hoping this is shit that can cure me
Look at the lines that I'm tracing
I wanna do this shit till I'm buried
The waters looking at me and it's waving
I know that I can improve yearly
The old me isn't what I'm staying
If you knew my capability you'd fear me
I've done wrong and I can say it
All these new dudes keep on mirroring
But I don't like to do shit basic
I don't wanna talk if you can fake it
I don't wanna talk if you can fake shit

I wanna stand tip toe on the tip top of the highest peak
With my own girl being lip locked
On her pretty hand with a ring rocked on it
Stress from the climb in my quadriceps chronic
I ain't ever touching tonic, I don't care who else is on it
I just wanna make the sound and I don't wanna get surrounded by the monsters
Maximize maturity and minimize the pain until there's no more in me
I got a lot more to see, I had to walk through the door in me
Just to visualize my own destiny
I keep it real cause there ain't no mother fucking jest in me
I only listen to this heartbeat in the chest of me