English - Colorblind Lyrics

Love is patient
Love is kind
Love does not envy
It does not boast
It is not proud
It does not dishonor others
It is not self-seeking
It is not easily angered
It keeps no record of wrongs
1 Corinthians 13:4-5
I don't know where to start
Maybe we could just compare our scars
You were the one I'd run to when my heart would tear apart
There is something about you that I cannot explain
I hit my three years sober so I can't stop the pain
And I've been acting arrogant it's apparent I'm not the same
I want you in my arms again
Heat radiating from that cardigan that you would always wear
You were so beautiful
I would always stare
Shit, no, I will always care
It's my own mental health that I'm afflicted with
You got a stronger grip on my than my addiction did
There is not in existence a perfect word to paint an image
A limited description in ever notebook I have written in
I see you in my dreams, but it seems like you are visionless
You're right, this song's about you and I doubt you're even listening
Shit, yeah, I doubt you even think of me
Brush strokes from your eye lashes when you would wink at me

I'm constructing these projections
You said you loved me when you texted
I started flipping out now I regret it
It was wrong the way I treated you
Said that I was leaving you for good
My mood changes like the seasons do
I wish so desperately I never would have caused the pain that forced us both to make it Easier to walk away
You were a color that I couldn't see
Your soul had a sun inside
You were gold, but I was colorblind (Movements reference. Go listen to them)
Yeah, your energy would radiate an ambient hue
I started hating myself which started damaging you
And now I see the glow is gone
Kind of like lovers who started with a spark and now the flame is getting smothered
There's a secret in that house that I will keep until the grave
But God willing, I will live to see the day
But if I don't, then you can take this as a parting gift
I love you