엔도 Endo - Everything Lyrics

I give it all give my everything
I try to do fucking everything
How can I go an do everything
And still I ain't got fucking anything

I cannot focus
집중을 못해 on anything
I cannot choose
선택하기 싫어 just one thing
I cannot do this
Wasting my time daydreaming
I feel so useless
Wading in water without ever swimming
I've fallen ill with an unknown sickness
Looking for cures while ignoring the symptoms
So scared of looking, looking within
That I much rather put the blame all on the system
This isn't my fault I've done my best
I took all the courses and took all the tests
I went learned everything that I need
To be the grown man I'm supposed to be
I wonder what lesson it is I'm forgetting
Maybe the knowledge is not what I'm lacking
I payed all my dues and I'm paying my taxes
But how the hell am I supposed to get past this

I give it all give my everything
I try to do fucking everything
How can I do fucking everything
And still I ain't got fucking anything

It's a recovery, strap for a mission
Saving myself from my own machinations
Dug myself in, time to get myself out
Clearing my head of all of my doubts
Why'd I have to lie to myself, was it worth it now
Now I'm by myself said it's fine, I done screwed myself
I'm not gonna cry I'll be fine, I done that enough
Say I'm better now

What's it feel like to be proud
Cause all that I have is my pride
Numb to the very sensation
Of feeling that joyful elation
Built up my life without setting foundations
Thought I was finished thought I was amazing
Loving my work without loving myself
Ain't that a disaster just waiting to happen
I burned all the bridges who need the connections
Heart to the head it just cause complications
That's what I thought but I fucking lost
What made me happy my fucking loss
Fuck all the fakin' and fuck all the blaming
They my mistakes I best get to fixing
Stacking my blessings Cash in soon enough
I'm living my best life and no one can take it

It's a recovery, strap for a mission
Saving myself from my own machinations
Dug myself in, time to get myself out
Clearing my head of all of my doubts
Why'd I have to lie to myself, was it worth it now
Now I'm by myself said it's fine, I done screwed myself
I'm not gonna cry I'll be fine, I done that enough
Say I'm better now