Dutch Newman - Father Lyrics

Father please help me I can't take no more
All I know is I have never felt this type of pain before
So what I gotta do for me to get em back
I promise I'm done drinking, snorting and sniffing that
Deprived
See what that do to your mind
I reckon I
Need to get it rectified
I'm terrified
I see a face inside of the mirror I no longer recognized
Who am I?
Tell me who am I?
Why hasn't it worked when I tried comitting suicide
It ain't that I want y'all here wearing suits and ties
It's just that my heart and mind still hasn't unified
I just want the pain to end
I don't know if I'll ever be the same again
But I'm sick of being a burden
I'm sick of having these urges
I'm sick of feeling this worthless
Can you hear me is it working?
Will this feeling ever go away
I just need a miracle
I just put my hands together both to pray
But I ain't even all that spiritual
So which drug you want today
Something to make me feel invincible
Cuz I'm just looking for some hope and change
Cuz this shit's gotten despicable
I'm just tired of making excuses
Walking round the house feeling basically useless
Until I'm high again and feel a sensational hubris
But then I'm coming back down and the shit make me stupid
And the pain is just excruciating but most of y'all you seldom see it
I look around trying to seek some hope
I just hope that I receive it

Father please help me I can't take no more
All I know is I have never felt this type of pain before
So what I gotta do for me to get em back
I promise I'm done drinking, snorting and sniffing that
Deprived
See what that do to your mind
I reckon I
Need to get it rectified
I'm terrified
I see a face inside of the mirror I no longer recognized
Who am I?
Tell me who am I?
Why hasn't it worked when I tried comitting suicide
It ain't that I want y'all here wearing suits and ties
It's just that my heart and mind still hasn't unified
I just want the pain to end
I don't know if I'll ever be the same again
But I'm sick of being a burden
I'm sick of having these urges
I'm sick of feeling this worthless
Can you hear me is it working?
Will this feeling ever go away
I just need a miracle
I just put my hands together both to pray
But I ain't even all that spiritual
So which drug you want today
Something to make me feel invincible
Cuz I'm just looking for some hope and change
Cuz this shit's gotten despicable
I'm just tired of making excuses
Walking round the house feeling basically useless
Until I'm high again and feel a sensational hubris
But then I'm coming back down and the shit make me stupid
And the pain is just excruciating but most of y'all you seldom see it
I look around trying to seek some hope
I just hope that I receive it