Doomtree - Beacon Lyrics

I took it for a kiss, but it couldn't have been, could it?
I see now what it is, we were just biting the same bullet
You called it in the air
It landed it on its edge
When the crowd gathers around you turn tail, I turn heads
Shaving down the puzzle piece, tryna make a clean fit
Take what is lovely, leave before the rain hits
It's a heartbreaker for starters, as you age not too much changes
Practice doesn't make perfect, just makes the game more dangerous

Yeah, start repo
Negative sleep nauseous
Barf party for sure
Intelligent creep, stalking awkward
Flush flustered rush for doors, advance fire-plan
Handy with the way out, routes explored
Cover catching up, careful with your care
We don't go there, naw
We keep locks and keys steadily swallowed
Never be followed, none of em dare
Channel up your anger leave it here, kindly disappear
Mind your mannerisms, I can't be flattered back
The patterns the concern, lessons prolly turned to fact
By now you'd surely drown yourself before you'd help me with this sail
I'm in the wind, crossed fingers for the win
Up to ten 'til they hammer in the very last nail
Challenging like every last stalemate, deal
With it, no mission ends
Precision lack of friends
Happily recommend nothing to no one, like ever

I know, I know
I know, wake up, wake up
But I don't go there, go there
She knows the way home
I know, I know
I know, wake up, wake up
But I don't go there, go there
She knows the way home

You know your way home?
You gonna be alright? yeah
But I had faith that you'd see the light
And ride with me or kiss me goodbye
Yeah, now you got me feeding kites into the night sky
Covered them with nightlights, like, did you see the beacon?
I swear I let those kites fly around all weekend, no?
Well someone must have cut the lines or something, no?
Or maybe something, oh, you weren't looking
Ok Plan B just panic
Run up the stairs and shut the door to the attic
And don't come up for air until you're torn from her fabric completely
And just like magic, you're all in one piece again
But, I'm nothing like I used to be
Elusive and reclusive
Now I'm just both times a hundred, exclusively
And truthfully, I was blind to the deep end
Until that piece of us went and died that weekend

I know, I know
I know, wake up, wake up
But I don't go there, go there
She knows the way home
I know, I know
I know, wake up, wake up
But I don't go there, go there
She knows the way home

Then it flashed forward, but I asked for it
Rip out the doubt, I'm way too south
I gulped it up, I laid back
Peeling off the layers, the mantra saying
"Fear can't stay here, self see you later"
Fire chakra dissolve to ether
I have to meet her, I know she knows the way
I'll have to die twice, no Novocaine
See the Eye of Horace, I am Osiris
I meet the devil, it ain't the first time
He kills me quick like I am nothing
Scream, "St. Peter, I need you now cousin"
See the owls coming, they float me safe
I learn their grace, they help me heal
Under stars, peeling off my skin
To rid my scars, it's the first time
I am reborn, but I am not me
No identity, and I am finally free
I am my brother, I am my father
I am the sun, I am the water
I am an ion, I am everything
I am the vapor, a cloud of smoke
I am a cheap laugh, but I get the joke
I am a brief flash, the abstract