Ditchwater - How Many Times Lyrics

I can't be what you want from me
Lonely is this life I concede

No more I don't want to see
Take it all away from me
Deny, nothing is real
Just leave me be

Pain is mine and this I'll own
My struggle is to overcome

Distrust, everything I see
Don't want it, get away from me
Distort all reality
Wont you leave me alone

How many times will I endure
The wave comes over me
I won't be yours 
How many times, the thought remains
How many times, can I break away  

Painis my saving grace 
Painthe pain that I embrace 
Painit lets me know I'm alive 
Pain is divine