DirtyWhite - Smoke in the Wind Lyrics

I dreamed it again
I dreamed the porch lights were all swirled into the wind
Like Picasso
Your colors were beautifully blended in
I was prisoner to your pupils
It was as real as it's ever been
The impish taunts of a moment designed just to pretend
So the story can never start until we find where to begin
I guess I'm searching for a preface that was written without a hint
Of the anger inside my soul so it could ultimately exist
Shit
I dreamed it again
And the living isn't as precious between strokes of a pen
Now there smoke in the wind
And my eyes are open again
I recognize my depression disguised as jokin' and grins
Yeah
I'm breathing sulfur again
I pushed my fingers into my eyes
But I feel hopeless again
I gotta focus again
A single night full of desire has left me broken again
And now there's smoke in the wind

I dreamed it again
Now I'm feelin' like sleepin' in is no longer my friend
Insomnia's closer to sanity than I've ever been
So as long as my eyes stay open I can manage to keep it in
Yeah
I dreamed it again
I wrote you and told you 'bout it
But I doubt if you'll read it again
And at this point I lowkey wanna start poppin' Xany's again
Then maybe I'll be able to sleep witout you doin' that dance in my head
Yeah
Cuz I dreamed it again
And I'll always remember how I was a fiend for your skin
If God could bring you back, shit
I'd start believin' in Him
But if I kill the old me, then the new me couldn't exist
Yeah
I guess I'm breathin' again
And tears aren't as bitter when the sunlight comes bumpin' in
The day's already started and I swear I feel like garbage
But I really really really wanted to get this shit recorded so

I guess I'm dreamin again
I guess I'm dreamin again
Yeah
I guess I'm dreamin again