DeezNuts - Honesty Lyrics

This is the last one I'll make for you
The guilt was hounding me
Followed me around and seemed
To pounce so unannounced in scenes
Gripping on that mailbox
Ripped it out the ground it keeps
Living the accounts of when we ended
The amounts of grief
Sickly has me wishing I could sit with you
And get to spout this piece
But I ain't good at facing anything about us D
I've tried reaching out
But you ain't bout to be
Caught up in a conversation
Talkin out a drownded dream
Your memory's so clouded now
You barely think about it how
My cost and the embarrassment
Gone and lost forgotten foul
The icing on the cake I baked eventually
That'd be the thing that brought us down
And end up being what had changed
That finally would have me go
And get to plot this route
Learn the ways designed
To change this train of thought
And knock it out
Make it out this maze and found my health
Engaged in constant doubt
Plagued cuz thoughts of hurting you
Would pop and shout
Dude you fucking ruined
Look what you've lost is, Wow!
Truly get exhaust in all the toxins found
Thinking of The Who and when
And what It might have blossomed to
Lookin just obnoxious now
I'm speaking honestly
I haven't got beyond us
Cuz the scene of the atrocities
Paralyze my dreams I wake up
Needing you to talk to me
Realize when I reach for you
I'm living in the loss of 'We'
And it's haunting me
I'm speaking honestly
I haven't got beyond us
Cuz the scene of the atrocities
Paralyze my dreams I wake up
Needing you to talk to me
Realize when I reach for you
I'm living in the loss of 'We'
And it's haunting me
In time that passes
Sifting thru my mind the chapters
Kissing you or lying laughin
Getting food or cryin after
Me losing Mariah happened
At Blue October shows
Singing music finding factors
To being groupies
Nikki's want for him inside her after
Had us always hanging out
And being all excited that we're
Up In The Foundation Room and creeping out
Beside the band for
Way too fucking long to just be sitting here
And spying banter
But adventures in our friendship
Were so memorable and endless
And indentions in my mental
Has me livid that it's ended
Thankful now it did
And how I wouldn't be up in this lane
I wouldn't have resented and
Attempted suicide
And found the route to finally winning
But after what my proof has found it's endless
Search to find someone
Thats worthy of your shoes is quite a mission
Especially since Work is all do
And now I'm timid
Weighing out the changes through this bout
And breaking thru without the gimmicks
I'm speaking honestly
I haven't got beyond us
Cuz the scene of the atrocities
Paralyze my dreams I wake up
Needing you to talk to me
Realize when I reach for you
I'm living in the loss of 'We'
And it's haunting me
I'm speaking honestly
I haven't got beyond us
Cuz the scene of the atrocities
Paralyze my dreams I wake up
Needing you to talk to me
Realize when I reach for you
I'm living in the loss of 'We'
And it's haunting me
I guess I needed to express this
As a means to my digest it
Telling you exactly what I mean
And how my heads been
Since calling out the blue to go regal
How excessive
I thought I wouldn't be and once Id seen you
How my head switched
At first I couldn't seem to put my finger on your methods
No reasoning behind it
So extreme and kinda reckless
But you were always being weird and
Even kinda skeptic
I'm doing good and keeping clear of bein high
Impressive
But I don't know if peeking out
To see you've found somebody new
Would be to good for me
And how I see you when I look at you
Still screaming wow
Shook and always gonna be this need to always be around
It's already consuming me
And not about to bring me down
I'm speaking honestly
I haven't got beyond us
Cuz the scenes of the atrocities
Paralyze my dreams I wake up
Needing you to talk to me and
Realize when I reach for you
I'm living in the loss of 'We'
And it's haunting me
Probably better off not even talking D
But you'll always mean a lot to me

This is the last one I'll make for you
The guilt was hounding me
Followed me around and seemed
To pounce so unannounced in scenes
Gripping on that mailbox
Ripped it out the ground it keeps
Living the accounts of when we ended
The amounts of grief
Sickly has me wishing I could sit with you
And get to spout this piece
But I ain't good at facing anything about us D
I've tried reaching out
But you ain't bout to be
Caught up in a conversation
Talkin out a drownded dream
Your memory's so clouded now
You barely think about it how
My cost and the embarrassment
Gone and lost forgotten foul
The icing on the cake I baked eventually
That'd be the thing that brought us down
And end up being what had changed
That finally would have me go
And get to plot this route
Learn the ways designed
To change this train of thought
And knock it out
Make it out this maze and found my health
Engaged in constant doubt
Plagued cuz thoughts of hurting you
Would pop and shout
Dude you fucking ruined
Look what you've lost is, Wow!
Truly get exhaust in all the toxins found
Thinking of The Who and when
And what It might have blossomed to
Lookin just obnoxious now
I'm speaking honestly
I haven't got beyond us
Cuz the scene of the atrocities
Paralyze my dreams I wake up
Needing you to talk to me
Realize when I reach for you
I'm living in the loss of 'We'
And it's haunting me
I'm speaking honestly
I haven't got beyond us
Cuz the scene of the atrocities
Paralyze my dreams I wake up
Needing you to talk to me
Realize when I reach for you
I'm living in the loss of 'We'
And it's haunting me
In time that passes
Sifting thru my mind the chapters
Kissing you or lying laughin
Getting food or cryin after
Me losing Mariah happened
At Blue October shows
Singing music finding factors
To being groupies
Nikki's want for him inside her after
Had us always hanging out
And being all excited that we're
Up In The Foundation Room and creeping out
Beside the band for
Way too fucking long to just be sitting here
And spying banter
But adventures in our friendship
Were so memorable and endless
And indentions in my mental
Has me livid that it's ended
Thankful now it did
And how I wouldn't be up in this lane
I wouldn't have resented and
Attempted suicide
And found the route to finally winning
But after what my proof has found it's endless
Search to find someone
Thats worthy of your shoes is quite a mission
Especially since Work is all do
And now I'm timid
Weighing out the changes through this bout
And breaking thru without the gimmicks
I'm speaking honestly
I haven't got beyond us
Cuz the scene of the atrocities
Paralyze my dreams I wake up
Needing you to talk to me
Realize when I reach for you
I'm living in the loss of 'We'
And it's haunting me
I'm speaking honestly
I haven't got beyond us
Cuz the scene of the atrocities
Paralyze my dreams I wake up
Needing you to talk to me
Realize when I reach for you
I'm living in the loss of 'We'
And it's haunting me
I guess I needed to express this
As a means to my digest it
Telling you exactly what I mean
And how my heads been
Since calling out the blue to go regal
How excessive
I thought I wouldn't be and once Id seen you
How my head switched
At first I couldn't seem to put my finger on your methods
No reasoning behind it
So extreme and kinda reckless
But you were always being weird and
Even kinda skeptic
I'm doing good and keeping clear of bein high
Impressive
But I don't know if peeking out
To see you've found somebody new
Would be to good for me
And how I see you when I look at you
Still screaming wow
Shook and always gonna be this need to always be around
It's already consuming me
And not about to bring me down
I'm speaking honestly
I haven't got beyond us
Cuz the scenes of the atrocities
Paralyze my dreams I wake up
Needing you to talk to me and
Realize when I reach for you
I'm living in the loss of 'We'
And it's haunting me
Probably better off not even talking D
But you'll always mean a lot to me