DED STARK - DED Lyrics

I'm just trying to be happy
Like everyone else, I don't need no help, I can take care of myself
So why you staring at me? (what?)
I used to wish I was invincible but now I only wish that I'm invisible, (uh)
If only it was simple, (oh yea)
I miss those dimples, (miss 'em)
Yea I thought I was in love once, but now that's over
And since I've forgotten what it's like to be sober
(drank)
Down, to the bottom of the bottle
And now, yea I'm drowning in my sorrow
I stay awake until tomorrow
Staring at the clock watch the hands go
(tick tock)
I'm just going through the motions
Like a machine but I'm fucking broken, (broken)
Feel like I'm fucking stuck out in the open ocean
Just trying to stay floating

I don't want to be DED, but it's so hard to live in this fucking world, Guess I was just another kid who was misunderstood, (misunderstood)
By all of the other boys and girls, (yea)
I don't want to be DED, but it's so hard to live in this fucking world, Guess I am just another kid who can't do nothing good
(nothing good)
Running in circles, in my head, (yea)
I don't want to be DED

Don't look at me like i'm broken
So what if I'm always smoking
Yea I'm a stoner and I'm a loner
Tell me something I don't know
I got an overflow of anxiety I'm trying to cope with
You know that society doesn't really give no shits
(no they don't, uh, yea)
I forgot my name and my face, limbo isn't a game its a place
Might as well be living out in space, cause I feel so far away
Up in these clouds I created, when I'm in the crowd I stay faded, Maybe I'm out of touch and I'm jaded, if it gets too loud Ima hate it
Cause I'm not as social as I used to be
You see the old me would usually
Be totally game to go out and fucking do something
But right now I'm hating today so I need you to leave (peace, yea)
I need you to go away, actually no wait stay
I'm confused what can I say, but Ima get through another day

I'm not DED, but it's so hard to live in this fucking world
Guess I was just another kid who was misunderstood, (misunderstood)
By all of the other boys and girls, (yea)
I don't want to be DED, but it's so hard to live in this fucking world, Guess I am just another kid who can't do nothing good
(nothing good)
Running in circles, in my head, (yea)
I don't want to be DED
I don't want to be DED