Decks, Greenwood - learning to lose Lyrics

Something was stolen
Something I borrowed
Must've been open
Must've been hollow
And open progression
Is nothing but awful
I trample my thoughts
Till they're tougher to swallow

It's passion that kills you
The nerve's gonna drive you insane
I can't stand to look back
When the only thing there is your name
I took this as a loss
When I should've been counting the days
It's a wish on a star
You're the only thing keeping me sane
I'm losing this game
When you're learning to lose
Well, the world isn't spinning the same

I put some distance out into the worlds
And I never trip about the way that it hurts
And I think they buried me deep in the dirt
But trust me, and trust me it still could get worse

Seventeen years in a hospital bed 
And they treat me different I know what it is
And it'd take a year to explain what it did
When I got a phantom inside of my limbs

Closed down, held over
And I found the worst way to tell you
And I couldn't leave but I'd let you
And tell me you think I'll be dead soon

Held down, I'm closer
And I found the best way to end it
And I didn't sleep just pretended
And fucked up my life like your friends said

It's passion that kills you
The nerve's gonna drive you insane
(Can't take back what I said, I'm the one you can blame)
I can't stand to look back
When the only thing there is your name
(Not the man in your heart, he had went with the pain)
I took this as a loss
When I should've been counting the days
(It's a pattern I keep, wish I'd throw it away)
It's a wish on a star
You're the only thing that's keeping me sane
(I know its too late)
I'm losing this game
When you're learning to lose
Well, the world isn't spinning the same