Decks, Evan Carr - if only Lyrics

Torture me
What you see
Is only make believe
Forcibly
Tell me things
You only wish you'd think
I'm taking back everything I said I would
Everything I said I could do for you
Just fell back into my hands
It never mattered what I said
'Cause by the time I went to bed
I forgot what you told me
Just hold me like you love me again
If only you had known what it meant
If only I'd seen the sunshine
Before it died
The permanent shadow
It cast across my mind
If only
I hadn't been so selfish
Ensure me
That you'd had done what I did
But it's gone
With the words that I'll never say
If only
I'd had seen the rock
What it brought
Knocking in circles
And laughing in purple
Is trapped in a memory
Left with a lesser me
Leading to countless nights
Hurting and wondering
What if I had told you
What if I had told you more
I'm taking back everything I said I would (What if I had told you?)
Everything I said I could do for you (What if I had told you more?)
Just fell back into my hands
It never mattered what I said (What if I had told you?)
'Cause by the time I went to bed (Time I went to bed)
I forgot what you told me (What if I had told you more?)
Just hold me like you love me again (Like you love me again)
If only you had known what it meant
Everything I said I would (Everything I said I would)
Everything I said I could do for you
Just fell back into my hands (Oh, it's all in my hands)
It never mattered what I said
'Cause by the time I went to bed
I forgot what you told me
Just hold me like you love me again
If only you had known what it meant
(Torture me, what you see is only make believe...)

Torture me
What you see
Is only make believe
Forcibly
Tell me things
You only wish you'd think
I'm taking back everything I said I would
Everything I said I could do for you
Just fell back into my hands
It never mattered what I said
'Cause by the time I went to bed
I forgot what you told me
Just hold me like you love me again
If only you had known what it meant
If only I'd seen the sunshine
Before it died
The permanent shadow
It cast across my mind
If only
I hadn't been so selfish
Ensure me
That you'd had done what I did
But it's gone
With the words that I'll never say
If only
I'd had seen the rock
What it brought
Knocking in circles
And laughing in purple
Is trapped in a memory
Left with a lesser me
Leading to countless nights
Hurting and wondering
What if I had told you
What if I had told you more
I'm taking back everything I said I would (What if I had told you?)
Everything I said I could do for you (What if I had told you more?)
Just fell back into my hands
It never mattered what I said (What if I had told you?)
'Cause by the time I went to bed (Time I went to bed)
I forgot what you told me (What if I had told you more?)
Just hold me like you love me again (Like you love me again)
If only you had known what it meant
Everything I said I would (Everything I said I would)
Everything I said I could do for you
Just fell back into my hands (Oh, it's all in my hands)
It never mattered what I said
'Cause by the time I went to bed
I forgot what you told me
Just hold me like you love me again
If only you had known what it meant
(Torture me, what you see is only make believe...)