Dax - Depression Lyrics

I can't find myself
I get lost inside my brain
I think I might need help
But I pushed all of 'em away
I took the cards they dealt
And there's nothing I can change
So when I'm by myself
I just pray for brighter days

Sometimes I sit and I reminisce 'bout the good times
Wish I could get those back
I keep on running these races that go in my mind
Then they go on these tracks
I'm not ready to erase all my memories, mm
I fight depression and I let it get the best of me
Now there's nowhere to run, nowhere to go
Look around, it's liquor bottles all on the floor
Filling up the space inside my heart and my home
Drowning out these thoughts until they leave me alone

I can't find myself
I get lost inside my brain
I think I might need help
But I pushed all of 'em away
I took the cards they dealt
And there's nothing I can change
So when I'm by myself
I just pray for brighter days

These thoughts are draining all my energy
I try to tell 'em to God, they said I'm going insane
And then they recommended therapy
And to go and talk to a man who's getting paid to explain
He started saying that the chemical imbalance is the reason that my brain
Ain't connecting to accomplishments associated with moving on
In life and past the things that my heart cannot contain
So the happiness won't sustain
Then he read me my options
He said "Here goes a pill, only take two with a meal"
And it'll numb how I feel

I can't find myself (I can't find myself)
I get lost inside my brain
I think I might need help (I think I might need help)
But I pushed all of 'em away
I took the cards they dealt (took the cards they dealt)
And there's nothing I can change
So when I'm by myself (when I'm by myself)
I just pray for brighter days

Should I drown all these thoughts, or should I leave 'em to float?
I got all of my flaws living inside of this boat
I've been anchored in pain, the weight is making me choke
It's getting harder to breathe, it's pulling right at my throat
I've been hoping for change, but don't know how to restart
They say you ain't a man when you exposing your heart
Then they say you're insane until it tears you apart
And then it cuts you so deep and they can tell by the scars
We can only see change when we accept who we are
Try to run from the shame and you will never get far
Don't you bottle the pain or live your life in the dark
You're meant to break from those chains and shine as bright as a star
Don't you ever tell yourself that your depression
Is the reason you won't make it or that happiness is not in your cards
With our God, you can beat all the odds
Keep your faith and you'll never be lost and say

I can't find myself
I get lost inside my brain
I think I might need help (I think I might need help)
But I pushed all of 'em away (I pushed all of them away)
I took the cards they dealt
And there's nothing I can change
So when I'm by myself
I just pray for brighter days