cøzybøy, Le Play - dear mama Lyrics

Woke up in a strip club tell me where the fuck I'm at
How'd I get here and how am I gonna get back
Check my phone missed call from my mom
If she knew where I was she'd have heart attack

Mom I'm sorry I been knowing it's hard to call me
I don't answer I get nervous I know I'm causing
Anxiety and stress you're baby bird's out the nest
But I keep my wings to my chest

There's distance between us
I know that you'll see this
I love you and Kelsey
I swear that I mean it
Just in my feelings
I'm sorry I need this
Throating this drink like I don't know my weakness

Most of my friends don't know none of my secrets
Only Le Play he knows some of my secrets
I got these demons they wreck me to pieces
When I say I love you that's when I mean it

Today a pretty angel lost it's wings to fly
I'm hurting while the smoke stings my crying eyes
Lost inside a cloud oh I swear I tried
Falling to the ground but I don't wanna die

Mom I'm sorry I know you see the scars on my body
But you will never stop me
Trying I'm trying I swear that I'm trying
But the rope around my neck seems to always keep tightening

But it's hard when you know that you're ugly
And it's hard when you know that you'll fail
And it's hard when there's nothing above me
A mouthful of secrets that I could never tell

And I'm sorry that I never call you back and
And I'm sorry if I been quiet lately
And I'm sorry if I been getting mad
But if I'm only being honest hate the skin that you gave me

And I been trying to see the lights in the day
But the lights go out and the sky turns grey
And my heart's been numb but the words wont stay
Just know that I love you and that will never fade ey

Today a pretty angel lost it's wings to fly
I'm hurting while the smoke stings my crying eyes
Lost inside a cloud oh I swear I tried
Falling to the ground but I don't wanna die

You don't know that you got me
But I swear that you have me ok
You don't know that you got me
But I swear that you have me ok