Conveyer - Blister Lyrics

From the outside looking in
Constant failure was the only friend I had
Taking everything for granted
This pity party in my head
Without You I'm as good as dead
Always playing victim
Always feeling sorry for myself
And blaming everyone else
I teeter on this soapbox, the tilt before the fall
My precipice of selfishness, I keep hitting a wall

Always falling off this beaten path, I'm tired of fading away
Trying to shed this weight, on my own
And it isn't working out, I'm tired of fading away
From the grace You set in place

On my own, sometimes I'm up
Sometimes I'm down
Help me not hate myself for having my doubts
Sinking in the guilt I'm still running from
Lost in the lies I haven't repented of
Memories like bullets, fired from a gun
Cracking me open

Nobody knows the trouble I've been
Nobody knows the trouble I've been, but You
This selfish masquerade that I have been putting You through
Nobody knows the trouble I've been, but You
Nobody knows, no one but You