CKaen - One More Chance (A Letter To You) Lyrics

I promise that this is her last chance I'm in denial
I'm only doing this because I told her that it's been a while
She told me that she's sorry and she doesn't mean what she said
But no that shit don't matter, you can't hurt me when I'm dead
I got love, dreams but I'm a little suicidal
If I hear another person shit on me then I'ma cry
The only person that I want to hear tonight is you
And if you can't get on call with me I don't know what I'll do
This wasn't meant to be this kind of song this was for you
But man I swear to god that if you hurt me I'ma lose it
Cause I'm down, broke I'm losing all my bread
And if I can't maintain our relationship I'll lose my head
This is the last straw, that's it
This is the final time
Cause swear girl if you break me down again I'm gonna die
Not in that way I'm not gonna fucking kill myself
But I'm not really the kind of person to admit I need some help
I'm selfish that's what everybody tells me
If I'm such a disappointment then I'd rather you just sell me
I'm fucking up again and I'm losing all my A's
I cannot get a job if I can't maintain my grades
I'm done, I can't I'm losing all my friends
I'm tired of forgiving them and trying to make amends
If no one wants to tell me why they don't wanna be my friend
Then I don't even care they can go fuck themselves again

One more chance to save myself
One more chance I need some help

Yeah I told myself that I won't be lonely again
Well let's look how this shit turned out I hate myself and then
I hurt myself I dig my nails into my skin
They're asking me where did I get these scratches think again
I'm messed up
Yeah, I know my brain is pretty done
Maybe if my dad was in my life then maybe I might give a fuck
I'm sorry for the swearing cause this was intent
But as I sit here writing this my intention was to vent
I hope my friends decide to change their lives
Because watching all my friends look in my face and tell me lies
Always cancel all the time, and they can't show up on time
I show them all the love and support in the world where's mine
I'm fine, I promise
I just needed some time
To try to do some other coping skills than just to cry
That's it, that's all
I promise I'll be fine
The last thing in the world that I will do is take my life
I love you

-Cam