Boondox, Jamie Madrox - Terminus Lyrics

Put my heart to paper
Spillin blood in every sentence
Take my whole entire life
Condense it down to 60 minutes
Cursing (cursing) was it worth it
Sacrifice and hope they heard it
Misery you don't deserve it
But you hoped that it was worth it
Listen I know the struggle now the
Gate and through this jungle
Everything becomes a battle
Learn to live with bloody knuckles
On the wrong end of
Buckles from inebriated uncles
Memories and certain sausage you can't
Bury with a shovel
I tried to make sense of this
And often side is sensitive
Fuck em if they don't like it
Cause it's how some people deal with it
Like a sedative when the
Hurt becomes repetitive
Positive and negative, all of it is relative

How many times do I have to fall
From the top of my dreams when
I reach for it all
Is it possible (anything's possible)
And that's why I'll never stop
And I keep telling myself
I can't believe it thinks again
I'm telling myself
I'll never know how this ends
The story goes on

I've always tried to live a
Little better than I'm feeling
By concealing brutal urges
Think it's working cause I'm dealing with a
Appetite fiend with thing
That might dismantle
Any positive example that put me
Out just like a candle
Without no kind of purpose and
Even broken on the surface
S'Own legacy is my verse cause
My family thinks I'm worthless so I
Write these sixteens with the
Things from my dreams put it on a beat to
Hopefully silence my screams
Silence my screams, huh
I still be screwed up when I'm dead and gone
‘Fuck it all' written on my headstone
But, it doesn't matter just
Another closing chapter
If you still need the answers take
It up with the pastor

How many times do I have to fall
From the top of my dreams when
I reach for it all
Is it possible (anything's possible)
And that's why I'll never stop
And I keep telling myself
I can't believe it thinks again
I'm telling myself
I'll never know how this ends
The story goes on

I'm not feeling numb
There's something going on
And I'm not feeling numb
So I'll just disappear

How many times do I have to fall
From the top of my dreams when
I reach for it all
Is it possible (anything's possible)
And that's why I'll never stop
And I keep telling myself
I can't believe it thinks again
I'm telling myself
I'll never know how this ends
The story goes on and my story goes on