BIG LAX - butterfly! Lyrics

I had nothing left to lose I lived a quite life
I was down bad searching for a sign of life
I thought I would leave this Earth and it was finalized
Nothing's guaranteed man I'm living a sorta kinda life
I've been through worse than this
I've been through worse than this
Don't care how hurt I am
I've been through worse than this
It can't get worse, can it
I've been through worse than this
Finally working with all my problems
I'm gon' solve them
Even when I took a wallop
I still got up
I know that I'm not immortal
I'm changing up my morals
I just want things to be normal
Seen too much to be cordial
I'm just reaching for a morsel
I just wanna see a brighter day
And I'm looking for it right away
Trying to end up in a brighter place
I had nothing left to lose I lived a quite life
I was down bad searching for a sign of life
I thought I would leave this Earth and it was finalized
Nothing's guaranteed man I'm living a sorta kinda life
I've been through worse than this
I've been through worse than this
Don't care how hurt I am
I've been through worse than this
It can't get worse, can it
I've been through worse than this
Don't care how hurt I am
I've been through worse than this
I end the transition
I'm on a new mission
Those things that I'm missing
No longer leave me smitten
Nowadays I'm way too focused on money
To treat myself like I'm deserving of slack
I don't hold grudges with anyone but myself like
"Nigga, why would you do that"
My life a bitch and she did me so dirty
I wanted to leave her and never go back
But that was too permanent I took the hurting and
Used it for something that made me some racks
I was trapped in a cocoon and my shell was so thick
That I thought I would never do well
Only starting to emerge and I feel like
I lost so much time that the damage was dealt
That's why I can't let you into my shit
Cause I stay going through my own personal hell
You want to know why I'm losing the will to go on
Cause this bitch won't get off of my cell
Like damn...
I can't even make new friends
Everything's always bout business
Or it comes down to pretend
Half these niggas ain't bout my interest
Even when I let them in
All the niggas I looked up to
Were the ones to cause my descent
(I've been through worse than this
I've been through worse than this)
But the shit ain't make me tough
It just made me lose touch
Now I can't just give out trust
Swear I been through too much
Swear I been through too much, yeah

I had nothing left to lose I lived a quite life
I was down bad searching for a sign of life
I thought I would leave this Earth and it was finalized
Nothing's guaranteed man I'm living a sorta kinda life
I've been through worse than this
I've been through worse than this
Don't care how hurt I am
I've been through worse than this
It can't get worse, can it
I've been through worse than this
Finally working with all my problems
I'm gon' solve them
Even when I took a wallop
I still got up
I know that I'm not immortal
I'm changing up my morals
I just want things to be normal
Seen too much to be cordial
I'm just reaching for a morsel
I just wanna see a brighter day
And I'm looking for it right away
Trying to end up in a brighter place
I had nothing left to lose I lived a quite life
I was down bad searching for a sign of life
I thought I would leave this Earth and it was finalized
Nothing's guaranteed man I'm living a sorta kinda life
I've been through worse than this
I've been through worse than this
Don't care how hurt I am
I've been through worse than this
It can't get worse, can it
I've been through worse than this
Don't care how hurt I am
I've been through worse than this
I end the transition
I'm on a new mission
Those things that I'm missing
No longer leave me smitten
Nowadays I'm way too focused on money
To treat myself like I'm deserving of slack
I don't hold grudges with anyone but myself like
"Nigga, why would you do that"
My life a bitch and she did me so dirty
I wanted to leave her and never go back
But that was too permanent I took the hurting and
Used it for something that made me some racks
I was trapped in a cocoon and my shell was so thick
That I thought I would never do well
Only starting to emerge and I feel like
I lost so much time that the damage was dealt
That's why I can't let you into my shit
Cause I stay going through my own personal hell
You want to know why I'm losing the will to go on
Cause this bitch won't get off of my cell
Like damn...
I can't even make new friends
Everything's always bout business
Or it comes down to pretend
Half these niggas ain't bout my interest
Even when I let them in
All the niggas I looked up to
Were the ones to cause my descent
(I've been through worse than this
I've been through worse than this)
But the shit ain't make me tough
It just made me lose touch
Now I can't just give out trust
Swear I been through too much
Swear I been through too much, yeah