Ares Silver - alive Lyrics

I've been in my head for ages
I just wanna die
No dreams or nightmares when I close my eyes
I'm don't wanna be here
I'm just tryna survive
I just want to wake up and feel like some time went by

Am I alive?
Don't know if I'm alive
Stuck inside the ether
Of an endless night
I think I'm alive
But I don't know why
I don't know why-y-y-y-y
But something ain't right

Every time I look up at the ice cold pale blue sky
I can feel a shiver running down my spine
Time is running by me, out of control most of the time
I never figured out to what extent I derealize

Am I alive?
Don't care if I'm alive
I don't know where I'm headed
Or if I will arrive
I think I'm alive
But I don't know why
I don't know why-y-y-y-y
But I'm terrified