Alien Pool - I ponder Lyrics

I've got a mosaic planned
A picture of my life
But read that again
Cause I'm tryna make it right
Bringing thoughts that are cardinal
Flowers cause I'm not cynical
And lastly I'm saying that it's not even reciprocal
I'm feeling tension like a spring
To be the first in my own eyes its
Just a funny feeling not knowing what the prize is
Sacrifing hours where I'm Blue I resist to let there be a chance that I miss,
But
I never know, I never know I
Waited too long, now I'm
Wondering why
Wondering how
All of the time
Just you and I
Maybe sometime
I don't know why
Wondering why
Wondering how
It didn't go
All of the way
All of the way
All of the way
No im not sad
I just ponder
What we could have been
I guess I've had my chance
But I missed it
No use of telling you know
What my wish is, a vicious
Vision Of what we could have been
Blinded by both insecurity and bad timing, I mean
Maybe now I am in your head
Still I am in my bed, and
As we met again
I couldn't help but
Feel so far behind
You looked so happy
I recall the first time I saw you smile
But that's besides the point
It's getting cold outside
I'm just Glad you're fine
As I'm trying
To make the best of it, Sometimes
I just start wondering, in time
That's why
Right now I fall
Right now I fall
Right now I fall
Right now I fall
Wondering why
Wondering how
All of the time
Just you and I
Maybe sometime
I don't know why
Wondering why
Wondering how
It didn't go
All of the way
All of the way
All of the way
No im not sad
I just ponder

I've got a mosaic planned
A picture of my life
But read that again
Cause I'm tryna make it right
Bringing thoughts that are cardinal
Flowers cause I'm not cynical
And lastly I'm saying that it's not even reciprocal
I'm feeling tension like a spring
To be the first in my own eyes its
Just a funny feeling not knowing what the prize is
Sacrifing hours where I'm Blue I resist to let there be a chance that I miss,
But
I never know, I never know I
Waited too long, now I'm
Wondering why
Wondering how
All of the time
Just you and I
Maybe sometime
I don't know why
Wondering why
Wondering how
It didn't go
All of the way
All of the way
All of the way
No im not sad
I just ponder
What we could have been
I guess I've had my chance
But I missed it
No use of telling you know
What my wish is, a vicious
Vision Of what we could have been
Blinded by both insecurity and bad timing, I mean
Maybe now I am in your head
Still I am in my bed, and
As we met again
I couldn't help but
Feel so far behind
You looked so happy
I recall the first time I saw you smile
But that's besides the point
It's getting cold outside
I'm just Glad you're fine
As I'm trying
To make the best of it, Sometimes
I just start wondering, in time
That's why
Right now I fall
Right now I fall
Right now I fall
Right now I fall
Wondering why
Wondering how
All of the time
Just you and I
Maybe sometime
I don't know why
Wondering why
Wondering how
It didn't go
All of the way
All of the way
All of the way
No im not sad
I just ponder