Alex Richy - UNDOING Lyrics

I just sit alone and I vent to myself
And I get so high that I forget that I am sad for just a moment
I can't be the only one that's hopeless
And the only one that's hoping someone's gonna notice I need help

But I don't know what to do
And I don't know where to go
And I don't know who I'm supposed to trust once covid is all done and I'm back on the Road
I just got a five pack of backwoods break a little down tryna let this go
Might as well let y'all know
The devil coming at me tryna take my soul
Nightly conversations with the Lord tryna block him out
But it's hard to see the light when all my demons surround me
And the Lord knows I'm weak
Man I feel like ima die but my heart keeps pounding
I just really wanna make y'all proud
Too many times that I let y'all down
At war with my demons and I won't back down
Dear God if your real , then I need you now
I been going through it
That's exactly what he wants
So I got to get through it
And ima do it
No more wasting time cause that'll be my undoing
And I'm avoiding that at all costs
To be honest I ain't ever gonna fall off
Cause I'm just getting started , made a promise that I'm gonna get it regardless of what it All costs
I mean
Except for my soul
Even though he promised that he wouldn't let go of the hold that he has till Im finally giving in to this life and the fame that he dangling
"A small price for a life that you always dreamed bout"
Yeah right man you say that now
But if I sell my soul then you make the profits
If you say I got it, I'll make it regardless
Ain't worried bout nothing except for my fam
They look at me to hold all of them down
Remember as a youngin back when I was running round
Wasn't worried bout half the shit I do right now
Like the life I provide
And that Junior prevails
Don't end up like me
And is living in hell
Inside of his head where his demons alive
Where he feel like he stuck even though that he tries to break out
But just breaks down
All these expectations got him weighed down
Demons tryna hold him under as he coming to the surface
Yeah he try to fight him off but he feelin like he may drown
Yeah
That's the way I feel
Tryna find a way to cope but This is how I deal with the pain of my past
As I pour another glass
Hope this feeling doesn't last
Cause I know that I

I just sit alone and I vent to myself
And I get so high that I forget that I am sad for just a moment
I can't be the only one that's hopeless
And the only one that's hoping someone's gonna notice I need help
Yeah
Man I need help
Man I need help
Yeah
Yeah
Said no ones ever been able to help me