Alex Annihilator - Still Not Dead Yet Lyrics

I'm not dead yet
Still not dead yet
Look inside my eyes
The pain divides me
Don't think I can hide
My mind is torturous
So I took some drugs
To avoid the pain inside me
I don't think I can hide anymore
I lay awake
Contemplating everything since I was a kid
Everything inside says I don't want more of this
I don't know exactly what is happening
But I always say I'm just fine
Tear out my eyes
So I don't have to watch myself
Living this way anymore
I hate the pain
I'd kill myself tonight
If I wasn't afraid of
Losing everything
That I've worked for
I've come along way since I woke up in ICU
Doomed, clinging to life and broken limbs
Tingling from the pins and needles under my skin
And now out of spite
I changed myself into this hateful being
Trying to regain the time that
Depression has taken from me
I'm not dead yet
I'm not dead yet
Still not dead yet
Don't know why
Hating everything inside of me is just my broken fantasy
I don't know why it loves to prey upon my anxiety
Look inside my eyes you'll see thoughts of suicide
I don't know why the fuck I'm still alive
I guess I'm not done with this useless fucking life
I guess I thank fuck that I'm still alive
I'm not dead yet I'm not dead yet
Still not dead yet Still not dead yet
I'm not dead yet I'm not dead yet
Still not dead yet I'm not dead yet

I'm not dead yet
Still not dead yet
Look inside my eyes
The pain divides me
Don't think I can hide
My mind is torturous
So I took some drugs
To avoid the pain inside me
I don't think I can hide anymore
I lay awake
Contemplating everything since I was a kid
Everything inside says I don't want more of this
I don't know exactly what is happening
But I always say I'm just fine
Tear out my eyes
So I don't have to watch myself
Living this way anymore
I hate the pain
I'd kill myself tonight
If I wasn't afraid of
Losing everything
That I've worked for
I've come along way since I woke up in ICU
Doomed, clinging to life and broken limbs
Tingling from the pins and needles under my skin
And now out of spite
I changed myself into this hateful being
Trying to regain the time that
Depression has taken from me
I'm not dead yet
I'm not dead yet
Still not dead yet
Don't know why
Hating everything inside of me is just my broken fantasy
I don't know why it loves to prey upon my anxiety
Look inside my eyes you'll see thoughts of suicide
I don't know why the fuck I'm still alive
I guess I'm not done with this useless fucking life
I guess I thank fuck that I'm still alive
I'm not dead yet I'm not dead yet
Still not dead yet Still not dead yet
I'm not dead yet I'm not dead yet
Still not dead yet I'm not dead yet