Aeva Alexander - Risked It All Lyrics

It's taken me awhile to admit
I'm just sick of the shit
You want something real
This as real as it gets
If you held a gun at my chest
Forgive yourself to live I'd be dead
I wrecked my car, lost my job, sabotaged love
Risked it all
Wrecked my heart, lost my mind, sabotaged friendships
Said fuck it all, watched it fall apart
Couldn't get out of bed trying hard to forget, stuck in my own head, finding myself again
I'm not okay but I must remain
positive, positive, positive
I wrecked my car, lost my job, sabotaged love
Risked it all
Wrecked my heart, lost my mind, sabotaged friendships
Said fuck it all, watched it fall apart
It's taken me awhile to admit
I'm just sick of the shit
You want something real
This as real as it gets