Yung Siah - Pain Lyrics

Father God, I pray for guidance as I'm walking through this war
Need u ordering my steps so I don't Neva take a fall
I been lonely and depressed I had my back against the wall
Know I needed u before but now I really need you more
I grew up with that anxiety was walking out the door
I got anger in my body and I'm speaking from the core
Called up Aj with them bikes and we would really go on tour
Me and Josh we had that trauma from everything that we saw
And my anger turned to paper I was writing on the walls
And my trauma turned to drama my momma was getting calls
How her son was skipping class and he was walking through the halls
Cuz his teacher wasn't speaking I was really getting bored but
Was that really it
Was I really skipping class because I ain't wanna sit
Or was it cause my teacher said that I ain't goin be rich
Anybody ever doubted me the reason I spit
Know imma make it uh
Cuz I'm ready to fight
All of the negative energy I feel inside my mind
Anybody getting toxic get em outta my life
Cuz ion even got the time to fit em into my rhymes for real
But
From the words of a guy
You ain't real if you feel like do gotta cry
And I was really taking pills jus to get through the night
But my tears running still ion know why I try

Father help me through the rain with this pain in my body
Cuz I been goin through it I been sinning and I'm sorry
You always there on time but I feel like I'm getting tardy
You wanting me to shine but lately, I been wearing Carties
You with me even when the sun don't shine
But I put it on my life that I won't ever let this pain knock me off of the grind

And my anger that's a subject I don't really like to talk about
Goin on for years but I guess now it's time to talk it out
Balling with my troops and all my problems I would dunk it out
My dad ain't like my dribble so he said it ain't no trying out
So I was sitting at home
Thinking to myself like how I'm goin get to the throne
And I been writing all my life to get it off my dome
Buh how I'm posed to keep my sanity if I'm all alone
Uh
Cuz when I walk through my life
I be thinking am I wrong or am I doing it right
Everybody say I'm wrong and I won't make it tonight
But I put it on my soul that I ain't proving em right
Cuz I know that imma make
Even if I'm rich I promise I won't be complacent
Know I gotta dream it's only right to go and chase it
Imma make it out and I don't care how long it's taking
Giving me an opportunity and Imma take it

Father help me through the rain with this pain in my body
Cuz I been goin through it I been sinning and I'm sorry
You always there on time but I feel like I'm getting tardy
You wanting me to shine but lately, I been wearing Carties
You with me even when the sun don't shine
But I put it on my life that I won't ever let this pain knock me off of the grind