Young Reela - Toxic Lyrics

Yeah
Yeah I hate you right now, yeah I'm not fucking with you right now
But I don't want you to get it confused with
I don't want, I don't want to you see you happy
I don't want you to be happy
I don't want you to be at peace
I don't want you to accomplish your goals and your aspirations, I still do
It's just that, you just need to do it on the other side
Because with you in my life right now, it's too toxic
I could tell you what I been through
But on these beats cause I got no one to vent to
So overloving somebody is what I tend to
Cause ain't nobody really caring what you been through
Heartbroken but I still gotta function
Heart big gotta play it like it's shrunken
Without knowing I contribute to the cycle
Cause hurt people hurt people then spiral
And I resent that it happens so frequently
Took it at face value what it seem to be
Not a care in the world just what it mean to me
Because I let you be you then you cling to me
Now you bringing me
All these vibes that you can't keep
Falling for you but I play it like it ain't deep
Then it go left, like it can't be
Gotta question myself and now I can't sleep
Now I'm up late cause it's unresolved
In the manner that you left without one regard
I be screaming out to God like why me
They see the energy I give then they dry me
Let you cry me, a river then drown in it
I get a bottle of the liquor then I'm downing it
Letting smoke in the air, clear everything
All the promises you made bout a wedding ring
They was empty, like a nigga really feeling now
Heart big but it got you feeling you lil now
I was going off emotion
Not thinking things through, that's the reason that I really gotta heal now
Pain, that's what I felt
Wonder if you truly felt how I felt
Wish it was us and like nobody else
At the end of the day now I'm back by myself (Uh)
Toxic, I been pouring it up with these toxins
Know I see it in me but can't stop it
Compared to everyone else you got options
But you, so, toxic, I been pouring it up with these toxins
Know you seeing the truth and still block it
Know I'm damaged and scarred take caution (Uh)
Let me show you real love unconditional
Gotta show you that a brother heart pure
Careless bout having to be traditional
Imma really bring the vibes you gon fall for me for sure
Got you doing things you never did
Know bout your past know I'm better than
Make em beg for attention never let em in
Then they get tired, ties sever them
Aye, I could just deflect while I'm pointing fingers
But the feeling of regret know it still lingers
Only ran to my music couldn't run to my momma
Childhood trauma make adulthood drama
Now I'm back alone gotta stand in the paint
Cause nobody really knowing all the things I had to conquer
Don't even got a heart, see them fragments in you
My ex told me that I had attachment issues
In the middle of a fight now I can't shake it
Like maybe she was right now I can't make it
And I can't take it, so I'm salty now
Cause everybody in my life steady walking out
Or they stay in it, but they checked out
Now I'm giving them the cards to defect now
Still leave but they kinda done left already
Got me drowning in my feelings cause the depth so heavy
I just wanna love can you love me back?
Don't wanna quit so quick so I double back
Never really letting go is my toxic trait
Would I should be doing, make em stop and wait
But I'm tryna fix you cause I know you broken
Now I'm giving you the tools but you getting me open
Out of the everybody I'm the one that you chosen
Real conversations, real things that were spoken
Times I wrong ain't forgave myself
Couldn't find closure but I made myself
Had to do it really quick for I hate myself
Cause the time gon pass can't escape yourself
Building up walls fore I break myself
I won't sleep with no regard so I wake myself
Gotta look into the mirror with my toxic ways
Don't wanna make you feel bad that you gotta stay cause I'm uh
Toxic, I been pouring it up with these toxins
Know I see it in me but can't stop it
Compared to everyone else you got options
But you, so, toxic, I been pouring it up with these toxins
Know you seeing the truth and still block it
Know I'm damaged and scarred take caution (Uh)

Yeah
Yeah I hate you right now, yeah I'm not fucking with you right now
But I don't want you to get it confused with
I don't want, I don't want to you see you happy
I don't want you to be happy
I don't want you to be at peace
I don't want you to accomplish your goals and your aspirations, I still do
It's just that, you just need to do it on the other side
Because with you in my life right now, it's too toxic
I could tell you what I been through
But on these beats cause I got no one to vent to
So overloving somebody is what I tend to
Cause ain't nobody really caring what you been through
Heartbroken but I still gotta function
Heart big gotta play it like it's shrunken
Without knowing I contribute to the cycle
Cause hurt people hurt people then spiral
And I resent that it happens so frequently
Took it at face value what it seem to be
Not a care in the world just what it mean to me
Because I let you be you then you cling to me
Now you bringing me
All these vibes that you can't keep
Falling for you but I play it like it ain't deep
Then it go left, like it can't be
Gotta question myself and now I can't sleep
Now I'm up late cause it's unresolved
In the manner that you left without one regard
I be screaming out to God like why me
They see the energy I give then they dry me
Let you cry me, a river then drown in it
I get a bottle of the liquor then I'm downing it
Letting smoke in the air, clear everything
All the promises you made bout a wedding ring
They was empty, like a nigga really feeling now
Heart big but it got you feeling you lil now
I was going off emotion
Not thinking things through, that's the reason that I really gotta heal now
Pain, that's what I felt
Wonder if you truly felt how I felt
Wish it was us and like nobody else
At the end of the day now I'm back by myself (Uh)
Toxic, I been pouring it up with these toxins
Know I see it in me but can't stop it
Compared to everyone else you got options
But you, so, toxic, I been pouring it up with these toxins
Know you seeing the truth and still block it
Know I'm damaged and scarred take caution (Uh)
Let me show you real love unconditional
Gotta show you that a brother heart pure
Careless bout having to be traditional
Imma really bring the vibes you gon fall for me for sure
Got you doing things you never did
Know bout your past know I'm better than
Make em beg for attention never let em in
Then they get tired, ties sever them
Aye, I could just deflect while I'm pointing fingers
But the feeling of regret know it still lingers
Only ran to my music couldn't run to my momma
Childhood trauma make adulthood drama
Now I'm back alone gotta stand in the paint
Cause nobody really knowing all the things I had to conquer
Don't even got a heart, see them fragments in you
My ex told me that I had attachment issues
In the middle of a fight now I can't shake it
Like maybe she was right now I can't make it
And I can't take it, so I'm salty now
Cause everybody in my life steady walking out
Or they stay in it, but they checked out
Now I'm giving them the cards to defect now
Still leave but they kinda done left already
Got me drowning in my feelings cause the depth so heavy
I just wanna love can you love me back?
Don't wanna quit so quick so I double back
Never really letting go is my toxic trait
Would I should be doing, make em stop and wait
But I'm tryna fix you cause I know you broken
Now I'm giving you the tools but you getting me open
Out of the everybody I'm the one that you chosen
Real conversations, real things that were spoken
Times I wrong ain't forgave myself
Couldn't find closure but I made myself
Had to do it really quick for I hate myself
Cause the time gon pass can't escape yourself
Building up walls fore I break myself
I won't sleep with no regard so I wake myself
Gotta look into the mirror with my toxic ways
Don't wanna make you feel bad that you gotta stay cause I'm uh
Toxic, I been pouring it up with these toxins
Know I see it in me but can't stop it
Compared to everyone else you got options
But you, so, toxic, I been pouring it up with these toxins
Know you seeing the truth and still block it
Know I'm damaged and scarred take caution (Uh)