YB Port - FriEnd Lyrics

See a smile on my face, so i'm doing great
They ain't see it underneath, when my heart aches
I been wondering how I got here in the first place
Prolly started when I took some pills on a Monday
Woke up fucked up on a Tuesday
More drugs, less love on a Wednesday
Done with the specifics cause I do this shit everyday
Every day's the same, swear I live my life on replay
Okay, nose bleeding from the cocaine
No way, I can feel it in my membrane
Know it's damaging my brain, I should really change
When I don't take a thing, I be feeling strange
White wine, whole bottle to the damn face
Popped pills I just bought, hope it's not laced
And i'm really tight with Mary Jane
Put my lips on her, and I know she'll take away the pain
I don't have any friends
But the drugs just pretend
They pretend they're my friends
Soon they're gonna be my end
All the money that I spend
Watch it blow in the wind
Tried to quit but there's a trend
I always do it again
And i'm always alone, I wonder if it's cause im not enough
Fighting sobriety, and praying to God up above
Wish I could change the self destructive thoughts i'm thinking of
And if i'm being honest, I think I just need more love
Every night i'm fucking sad, but tears ain't ever gonna shed
And i'm fighting battles with myself, it's all inside my head
At least i'm still alive, there was a time where I wished to be dead
Unsuccessful when I tried, woke up inside the hospital bed
Instant regret, belt loop around my neck
Tight like a corset, blood rushing to my head
DMT trip, life flashed before my eyes
"Shit this is it man, soon you're gonna die"
That's what I told myself, but I guess I lied
not ready die, i'm not ready to die
not ready die, i'm not ready to die
I don't have any friends
But the drugs just pretend
They pretend they're my friends
Soon they're gonna be my end
All the money that I spend
Watch it blow in the wind
Tried to quit but there's a trend
I always do it again

See a smile on my face, so i'm doing great
They ain't see it underneath, when my heart aches
I been wondering how I got here in the first place
Prolly started when I took some pills on a Monday
Woke up fucked up on a Tuesday
More drugs, less love on a Wednesday
Done with the specifics cause I do this shit everyday
Every day's the same, swear I live my life on replay
Okay, nose bleeding from the cocaine
No way, I can feel it in my membrane
Know it's damaging my brain, I should really change
When I don't take a thing, I be feeling strange
White wine, whole bottle to the damn face
Popped pills I just bought, hope it's not laced
And i'm really tight with Mary Jane
Put my lips on her, and I know she'll take away the pain
I don't have any friends
But the drugs just pretend
They pretend they're my friends
Soon they're gonna be my end
All the money that I spend
Watch it blow in the wind
Tried to quit but there's a trend
I always do it again
And i'm always alone, I wonder if it's cause im not enough
Fighting sobriety, and praying to God up above
Wish I could change the self destructive thoughts i'm thinking of
And if i'm being honest, I think I just need more love
Every night i'm fucking sad, but tears ain't ever gonna shed
And i'm fighting battles with myself, it's all inside my head
At least i'm still alive, there was a time where I wished to be dead
Unsuccessful when I tried, woke up inside the hospital bed
Instant regret, belt loop around my neck
Tight like a corset, blood rushing to my head
DMT trip, life flashed before my eyes
"Shit this is it man, soon you're gonna die"
That's what I told myself, but I guess I lied
not ready die, i'm not ready to die
not ready die, i'm not ready to die
I don't have any friends
But the drugs just pretend
They pretend they're my friends
Soon they're gonna be my end
All the money that I spend
Watch it blow in the wind
Tried to quit but there's a trend
I always do it again