will hyde - i always end up leaving. Lyrics

I don't know how to say things that I know are gonna hurt you
I don't know how to carry this burden but I still do
Growing up hasn't made much sense since I left school
Now I'm all alone in my room thinking how did I fuck this up again?

'Cause when you're down
I'm not around
When you call for me
I turn down the sound
Instead of facing what I know
I turn away out of hope
That maybe someday I won't think of leaving
When you need me

And I know you wonder how I spend my time
'Cause when you text me I take two days to reply
And I don't know why you won't leave me
The man I am is half of who I used to be

'Cause when you're down
I'm not around
When you call for me
I turn down the sound
Instead of facing what I know
I turn away out of hope
That maybe someday I won't think of leaving
When you need me

I'm doubting myself
'Cause everything I said is in the past
That's the past
Thought that we were gonna last
We could've been happy ever after (oh no)
Now we're a disaster (oh no)
And I couldn't run away faster
'Cause I never could give you what you want
I tell myself that 'cause I don't know what I want
Hold up, I need a lesson on self love
No, I don't need drugs
Now that you're gone I just really wanna see ya

'Cause when you're down
I'm not around
When you call for me
I turn down the sound
Instead of facing what I know
I turn away out of hope
That maybe someday I won't think of leaving
When you need me

I always end up leaving
So where do you need me?
I always end up leaving (yeah, yeah)
When you need me

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